Day 70 (15th day away from subs),
Noticing that my internal resistances to action is no longer an overt feeling or direct emotional experience; it's more like an aversion, similar to being offered a bowl of olives (I don't care much for those).
So, if I'm distancing myself for a bunch of cold calls, I experience it as me thinking "well, I don't *have* to do that"; it's not me thinking "I'm too afraid to make this phone call".
This is for money-related issues.
A very insidious distinction between external and internal, as it becomes tougher to audit my own behaviors.
My fears get wrapped up in layers of sophistication.
Every time I'm mustering up the courage, I'm getting profound insights and ideas for a book I want to write; a very productive distraction.
I really want to take on OGSF after this break, but I might as well get the desired outcome from MM. I've seen Shannon write that MM will remove guilt-based and shame-based issues directly related to money if it really needs to.
Noticing that my internal resistances to action is no longer an overt feeling or direct emotional experience; it's more like an aversion, similar to being offered a bowl of olives (I don't care much for those).
So, if I'm distancing myself for a bunch of cold calls, I experience it as me thinking "well, I don't *have* to do that"; it's not me thinking "I'm too afraid to make this phone call".
This is for money-related issues.
A very insidious distinction between external and internal, as it becomes tougher to audit my own behaviors.
My fears get wrapped up in layers of sophistication.
Every time I'm mustering up the courage, I'm getting profound insights and ideas for a book I want to write; a very productive distraction.
I really want to take on OGSF after this break, but I might as well get the desired outcome from MM. I've seen Shannon write that MM will remove guilt-based and shame-based issues directly related to money if it really needs to.
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