11-22-2023, 01:19 PM
hey...
I am still here... I am still using UMS...
Since my last journal entry, a lot of things did happen...
First, the markets have awaken from their lull. It makes everything much easier... Trending action is stronger and longer...
This is something that I have voiced as early as first week of October... I did not let go that dream...
Once I reach the throughput of testing 5 new systems per week... It is only a matter of time before I stumble on home runners...
A lot of new understanding in my trading craft have been acquired...
I am starting to put in place a framework that allows me to create new trading systems in half a day or less...
I am not there yet... my last developed system took about 2 days but I am confident that I will be getting there soon as my framework gain maturity...
The system that I was working on late September/early October was not that good but playing with it did allow me to perfect tremendously all the code monitoring an open position
The last 3 that I have worked on appears to be better... Still need some more time to validate the resulting success rate and the average PNL with them and once I am confident that they provide reliable performance, I will crank up their trading budget to generate some decent income...
I have many consecutive days with positive results... Unfortunately, this is only with toy budget... we are talking few dollars of profit... but it does not make a difference 5% wether it is on a $100 budget or a $5000 dollars budget, it is the same... Once you are able to be confident to generate a daily 5% profit consistently, there is no reason to not be able to repeat it with a bigger budget...
but maybe this is my ultimate challenge... Overcome the fear of loss... It is not impossible that I am too prudent right now...
Beside the trading project... October and November have been rough emotionally...
Few relations with family members did turn sour...
It is weird how I feel being treated... I am very rational and reasonable... Logically, I have done nothing wrong...
I have accepted helping my ex on her request... not sure what I was expecting in return. A thank you would have been nice but instead I got a burst of anger... with a bunch of unrelated accusations of wrong doing... I feel this is unfair... I feel unappreciated... She has broken her words to assist me on a task she did promise to help me with...
so all in all, she is treating me like shit in an unacceptable way... This is an asymitrical relation... where she keep asking and asking favors regarding the kids and for the rare occasions that it is my turn to ask for assistance, she just kinda just disappear and even not have the decency to explain me the reason and apologize for it...
For one, if it was not for the link that I have with that person with the kids, I would simply remove her from the list of people that I have want to relate with...
I am not too sure what to think about all of this... I have a great sense for treating others fairly and with respect and I feel that the more you are like that, the more you attract ugly people that will attempt to take advantage of you...
I really wonder if the UMS auric shield are making them feel bad for what they try to do to me...
I have even attempted to calmly expose my position with written communication... my communication did remain unanswered... I feel no desire from the other party to resolve the situation...
so, oh well I am giving up...
now, It is not a question of if... but of when... that she will have another favor to ask... I will definitely not be in the mood of being cooperative with her needs...
I am still here... I am still using UMS...
Since my last journal entry, a lot of things did happen...
First, the markets have awaken from their lull. It makes everything much easier... Trending action is stronger and longer...
This is something that I have voiced as early as first week of October... I did not let go that dream...
Once I reach the throughput of testing 5 new systems per week... It is only a matter of time before I stumble on home runners...
A lot of new understanding in my trading craft have been acquired...
I am starting to put in place a framework that allows me to create new trading systems in half a day or less...
I am not there yet... my last developed system took about 2 days but I am confident that I will be getting there soon as my framework gain maturity...
The system that I was working on late September/early October was not that good but playing with it did allow me to perfect tremendously all the code monitoring an open position
The last 3 that I have worked on appears to be better... Still need some more time to validate the resulting success rate and the average PNL with them and once I am confident that they provide reliable performance, I will crank up their trading budget to generate some decent income...
I have many consecutive days with positive results... Unfortunately, this is only with toy budget... we are talking few dollars of profit... but it does not make a difference 5% wether it is on a $100 budget or a $5000 dollars budget, it is the same... Once you are able to be confident to generate a daily 5% profit consistently, there is no reason to not be able to repeat it with a bigger budget...
but maybe this is my ultimate challenge... Overcome the fear of loss... It is not impossible that I am too prudent right now...
Beside the trading project... October and November have been rough emotionally...
Few relations with family members did turn sour...
It is weird how I feel being treated... I am very rational and reasonable... Logically, I have done nothing wrong...
I have accepted helping my ex on her request... not sure what I was expecting in return. A thank you would have been nice but instead I got a burst of anger... with a bunch of unrelated accusations of wrong doing... I feel this is unfair... I feel unappreciated... She has broken her words to assist me on a task she did promise to help me with...
so all in all, she is treating me like shit in an unacceptable way... This is an asymitrical relation... where she keep asking and asking favors regarding the kids and for the rare occasions that it is my turn to ask for assistance, she just kinda just disappear and even not have the decency to explain me the reason and apologize for it...
For one, if it was not for the link that I have with that person with the kids, I would simply remove her from the list of people that I have want to relate with...
I am not too sure what to think about all of this... I have a great sense for treating others fairly and with respect and I feel that the more you are like that, the more you attract ugly people that will attempt to take advantage of you...
I really wonder if the UMS auric shield are making them feel bad for what they try to do to me...
I have even attempted to calmly expose my position with written communication... my communication did remain unanswered... I feel no desire from the other party to resolve the situation...
so, oh well I am giving up...
now, It is not a question of if... but of when... that she will have another favor to ask... I will definitely not be in the mood of being cooperative with her needs...
