11-12-2023, 11:23 AM
Some post-run bloom this week.
From the above perspective, I have realized that I need to forgive myself. Specifically, my younger self, because I didn't know what I was doing at the time.
It's easy to fall into the trap of "If I knew then what I know now" and then judge our actions then based on what we know now. Or, more subtly, project what we know now into "what I should have known" - "I should have known better". But I didn't know. I had no way of knowing. I couldn't have known better. I did the best I could at the time.
This is not exoneration. The mistakes I made were mistakes. The harm I did was harm. But I can stop carrying the burden for what I did not know and was not able to do differently.
From the above perspective, I have realized that I need to forgive myself. Specifically, my younger self, because I didn't know what I was doing at the time.
It's easy to fall into the trap of "If I knew then what I know now" and then judge our actions then based on what we know now. Or, more subtly, project what we know now into "what I should have known" - "I should have known better". But I didn't know. I had no way of knowing. I couldn't have known better. I did the best I could at the time.
This is not exoneration. The mistakes I made were mistakes. The harm I did was harm. But I can stop carrying the burden for what I did not know and was not able to do differently.
