11-03-2023, 11:53 AM
I took a four-day break, and started back again yesterday. This time for the OCI process, I chose fear as the topic. Not anything specific; but once I got writing, plenty of material bubbled up. It was like a monologue from myself, to myself. I rambled around quite a bit, covering different events/circumstances, and my thoughts, opinions and emotions surrounding these. In keeping with my apparent pattern in the process, I ended up angry. Oh yeah, plenty of swearing...
The session lasted maybe 25 minutes. Today I've been feeling weird (whoa, just looked up “weird” on the Online Etymological Dictionary-interesting!) But that makes sense: if GSF are some of the 'glue' that holds my subjective reality in place, then when my real being emerges, it should look and feel very different indeed. Also, for some reason I've been thinking about someone I had a mad crush on many moons ago. I never made a move... Let me guess...fear?
The session lasted maybe 25 minutes. Today I've been feeling weird (whoa, just looked up “weird” on the Online Etymological Dictionary-interesting!) But that makes sense: if GSF are some of the 'glue' that holds my subjective reality in place, then when my real being emerges, it should look and feel very different indeed. Also, for some reason I've been thinking about someone I had a mad crush on many moons ago. I never made a move... Let me guess...fear?
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