10-22-2023, 08:37 AM
Recently my mind goes wild and start having compulsive thoughts again just for me to start giving a damn about thoughts like me getting stabbed or worse, somehow my subconscious blindly believes my compulsive thoughts will happen but if that's true then i wouldn't be here, what a want to say is that i have always very high expectations (most of them never happen) and my perception was biased from the beggining so maybe i'm starting to get down to reality instead of lingering in my delusive dreams which means i no longer view my life as shit or something negative, i just happen to live experiences and get something from it, that also means my dreams are starting to crumble down as well but i'm relieved because i just kept pushing myself and getting depressed for not achieving it.
