10-20-2023, 12:03 PM
I'm seven and a half weeks in now, and still experiencing the oscillation between feeling relatively good, and reactive states that vary from mildly annoyed to “don't mess with me.” I realize I need my attention to include my state, as well as the goings-on 'out there' so I might be quicker in recognizing when my inner state starts to go awry. Also, sometimes when I'm calm and feeling relaxed, I sense a certain inner vibration, and I am wondering if it's my personal “home vibration.” On the whole, it all feels like a slow-but-steady upward trajectory.
Also, lately something has got me thinking about introversion. On the introvert scale from 1 to 10, I am an 11. In my baby book, my mother wrote that I was “a quiet baby.” For a long time I thought that the difference between introverts and extroverts was that extroverts talk more, and introverts talk less. Which is generally true, as far as it goes. But apparently the major difference is that extroverts process externally, and introverts process internally. I see that, in general, I react negatively when people want to “process” during a conversation (unless it's specifically a problem-solving conversation.) I'm in a big hurry to get to the bottom line. Maybe I'll see if I can slow down, and meander around more in such conversations...
Also, lately something has got me thinking about introversion. On the introvert scale from 1 to 10, I am an 11. In my baby book, my mother wrote that I was “a quiet baby.” For a long time I thought that the difference between introverts and extroverts was that extroverts talk more, and introverts talk less. Which is generally true, as far as it goes. But apparently the major difference is that extroverts process externally, and introverts process internally. I see that, in general, I react negatively when people want to “process” during a conversation (unless it's specifically a problem-solving conversation.) I'm in a big hurry to get to the bottom line. Maybe I'll see if I can slow down, and meander around more in such conversations...
The banquet you enjoy depends on what you bring to the table.
