I usually run my loop when I go to bed, but I felt the need for a little downtime when I got home from work yesterday, and decided to run it then. I never fell asleep, and at one point I found myself ruminating on a painful event from my past, thinking I could have done better, I should have done more. I was trying to find the relation between this memory, and OGSF. It wasn't fear, and didn't seem like shame, and while guilt seemed closer to the mark, that wasn't quite it, either. So I consulted the Online Etymology Dictionary, and found these:
Guilt: "crime, sin, moral defect, failure of duty"
Shame: “"painful feeling of guilt or disgrace; confusion caused by shame; state of being in disgrace; dishonor, insult, loss of esteem or reputation”
Close, but not quite. And then there was this:
Remorse: “intense and painful self-condemnation and penitence due to consciousness of guilt; the pain of a guilty conscience”
One more:
Conscience "faculty of knowing what is right," later "awareness that the acts for which one feels responsible do or do not conform to one's ideal of right," later (late 14c.) more generally, "sense of fairness or justice, moral sense."
That seemed to cover it; self-condemnation due to awareness that the acts for which one feels responsible do not conform to one's ideal of right
I guess conscience is not very popular in the world right now...
Guilt: "crime, sin, moral defect, failure of duty"
Shame: “"painful feeling of guilt or disgrace; confusion caused by shame; state of being in disgrace; dishonor, insult, loss of esteem or reputation”
Close, but not quite. And then there was this:
Remorse: “intense and painful self-condemnation and penitence due to consciousness of guilt; the pain of a guilty conscience”
One more:
Conscience "faculty of knowing what is right," later "awareness that the acts for which one feels responsible do or do not conform to one's ideal of right," later (late 14c.) more generally, "sense of fairness or justice, moral sense."
That seemed to cover it; self-condemnation due to awareness that the acts for which one feels responsible do not conform to one's ideal of right
I guess conscience is not very popular in the world right now...
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