Howl:Bye Bye Childhood Obesity!

[MrGnome]

Cycle 11 Day on 1:

Hey all, Sorry I have been gone for so long..

I started to feel ashamed for the fact that I only started to gain weight after all this time:

Weight: 140,9KG
BMI:37,1
Bodyfat:29,7%
Muscle weight: 94,25
Muscle quality: 81MQ
Metabolic age: 48 years old

As you can see I still messed up big time..

But atleast I now know that my sleeping problems are a part of the reason.

Another Reason is the fact that I cant shake off the shamefull feeling of having to throw food away (even though I still set it aside when I have enough).

And my Mother gets worried that the food she cooked was bad when that's not the case..

I also cant stop seeing food as a reward (like with my birthday on September 13th... where I had to eat speciale food just because it was my birthday.)

I also had a long time depression because it has been a while since I last saw my friends.. (okay it was this years june but still..)

the fact that my minds are fighting doesn't really help much,I need to find a way to break my old habbits and fast... Atleast I found something that might improve my sleep lets hope it accually works though..

I also started to sleep with my mobile in bed wich cause cases of where I had my arm over the audio output of my mobile phone... dont know how much damage it does but I'm sure it hurt my progress in some way..

I hope I can stop feeling like a Failure though...

Hey Bro, You need to get a big enough WHY to lose the weight. Don't feel ashamed let the garage get fat. Don't let your mother sabotage you. When I was marriage my ex-wife tried to do that because she didn't want to see me look better than her. Her mother did it too. I had to be my own support. That is hard in a marriage, I support every diet she was on. But she twitch every diet to her advance and if it didn't work or gain weight she blame the diet. I guess her own sabotage. I try to food in moderation and pay attention to how many calories your taking in. Tell mother if the food is bad I tell you. If I am eating it, it's not bad.  "The reward should be a slimmer healthier you"  Don't beat yourself up, if you mess up sometimes. If you visualize how you want to look. You can cut out a picture of you that you want to look like & put you face on it for motivation. That is another reward.


Hope this helps!!!

Thanks Z-Man! : ),

You are right! Also I figured out that bad quality sleep and stress also play a big role in why I start to eat more,Luckly I bought some pills yesterday to make me sleep better and let me handle stress better in life (or atleast thats what it claims,today is my first day trying it out).

Also,It might be hard to do but I got old pics of myself on facebook when I was 100KG (220 pounds) from 9 years ago when I lost all the extra weight with fasting.Something I wouldn't be able to do today.

but mayby confronting myself with it and reminding me of how good I used to Look, even if it was only for 1 year.. could help me out mayby so I will try it out : ).