Howl:Bye Bye Childhood Obesity!

[Z-Man]

Cycle 11 Day on 1:

Hey all, Sorry I have been gone for so long..

I started to feel ashamed for the fact that I only started to gain weight after all this time:

Weight: 140,9KG
BMI:37,1
Bodyfat:29,7%
Muscle weight: 94,25
Muscle quality: 81MQ
Metabolic age: 48 years old

As you can see I still messed up big time..

But atleast I now know that my sleeping problems are a part of the reason.

Another Reason is the fact that I cant shake off the shamefull feeling of having to throw food away (even though I still set it aside when I have enough).

And my Mother gets worried that the food she cooked was bad when that's not the case..

I also cant stop seeing food as a reward (like with my birthday on September 13th... where I had to eat speciale food just because it was my birthday.)

I also had a long time depression because it has been a while since I last saw my friends.. (okay it was this years june but still..)

the fact that my minds are fighting doesn't really help much,I need to find a way to break my old habbits and fast... Atleast I found something that might improve my sleep lets hope it accually works though..

I also started to sleep with my mobile in bed wich cause cases of where I had my arm over the audio output of my mobile phone... dont know how much damage it does but I'm sure it hurt my progress in some way..

I hope I can stop feeling like a Failure though...

Hey Bro, You need to get a big enough WHY to lose the weight. Don't feel ashamed let the garage get fat. Don't let your mother sabotage you. When I was marriage my ex-wife tried to do that because she didn't want to see me look better than her. Her mother did it too. I had to be my own support. That is hard in a marriage, I support every diet she was on. But she twitch every diet to her advance and if it didn't work or gain weight she blame the diet. I guess her own sabotage. I try to food in moderation and pay attention to how many calories your taking in. Tell mother if the food is bad I tell you. If I am eating it, it's not bad.  "The reward should be a slimmer healthier you"  Don't beat yourself up, if you mess up sometimes. If you visualize how you want to look. You can cut out a picture of you that you want to look like & put you face on it for motivation. That is another reward.

Hope this helps!!!