10-03-2023, 09:28 AM
Cycle 11 Day on 1:
Hey all, Sorry I have been gone for so long..
I started to feel ashamed for the fact that I only started to gain weight after all this time:
Weight: 140,9KG
BMI:37,1
Bodyfat:29,7%
Muscle weight: 94,25
Muscle quality: 81MQ
Metabolic age: 48 years old
As you can see I still messed up big time..
But atleast I now know that my sleeping problems are a part of the reason.
Another Reason is the fact that I cant shake off the shamefull feeling of having to throw food away (even though I still set it aside when I have enough).
And my Mother gets worried that the food she cooked was bad when that's not the case..
I also cant stop seeing food as a reward (like with my birthday on September 13th... where I had to eat speciale food just because it was my birthday.)
I also had a long time depression because it has been a while since I last saw my friends.. (okay it was this years june but still..)
the fact that my minds are fighting doesn't really help much,I need to find a way to break my old habbits and fast... Atleast I found something that might improve my sleep lets hope it accually works though..
I also started to sleep with my mobile in bed wich cause cases of where I had my arm over the audio output of my mobile phone... dont know how much damage it does but I'm sure it hurt my progress in some way..
I hope I can stop feeling like a Failure though...
Hey all, Sorry I have been gone for so long..
I started to feel ashamed for the fact that I only started to gain weight after all this time:
Weight: 140,9KG
BMI:37,1
Bodyfat:29,7%
Muscle weight: 94,25
Muscle quality: 81MQ
Metabolic age: 48 years old
As you can see I still messed up big time..
But atleast I now know that my sleeping problems are a part of the reason.
Another Reason is the fact that I cant shake off the shamefull feeling of having to throw food away (even though I still set it aside when I have enough).
And my Mother gets worried that the food she cooked was bad when that's not the case..
I also cant stop seeing food as a reward (like with my birthday on September 13th... where I had to eat speciale food just because it was my birthday.)
I also had a long time depression because it has been a while since I last saw my friends.. (okay it was this years june but still..)
the fact that my minds are fighting doesn't really help much,I need to find a way to break my old habbits and fast... Atleast I found something that might improve my sleep lets hope it accually works though..
I also started to sleep with my mobile in bed wich cause cases of where I had my arm over the audio output of my mobile phone... dont know how much damage it does but I'm sure it hurt my progress in some way..
I hope I can stop feeling like a Failure though...
