09-19-2023, 01:36 AM
Days off really showing good things again.
Today, midway through work, I really felt relaxed. A relaxation I have not felt in 13 years. OGSFv2 has most likely cleared an issue that resulted in a trauma 13 years ago that created a deep seated unsafe feeling in me. I can track this one because I remember that I never felt the same since that issue..........and now it seems to be cleared. When it came about I was just not willing to stress myself out anymore and relaxed quite a bit. It's once again in the sensing/feeling department and it wasn't under conscious control unless I wanted to keep pushing myself via stress, which I was not willing.
However, an interesting phenomena of coming off of stress is that you feel like you are in an almost depressed state. I've heard other peoples experiences from this "come down" off a constant stress state and most generally relate it to and addiction-like action of the hormones of stress. Whatever it is, it's actually a good sign, it means that the stress that has driven my life for the last 13 years is resolved or resolving. Once again all this is happening in the feelings department so it's a little hard to put words to it.
Today, midway through work, I really felt relaxed. A relaxation I have not felt in 13 years. OGSFv2 has most likely cleared an issue that resulted in a trauma 13 years ago that created a deep seated unsafe feeling in me. I can track this one because I remember that I never felt the same since that issue..........and now it seems to be cleared. When it came about I was just not willing to stress myself out anymore and relaxed quite a bit. It's once again in the sensing/feeling department and it wasn't under conscious control unless I wanted to keep pushing myself via stress, which I was not willing.
However, an interesting phenomena of coming off of stress is that you feel like you are in an almost depressed state. I've heard other peoples experiences from this "come down" off a constant stress state and most generally relate it to and addiction-like action of the hormones of stress. Whatever it is, it's actually a good sign, it means that the stress that has driven my life for the last 13 years is resolved or resolving. Once again all this is happening in the feelings department so it's a little hard to put words to it.
