09-09-2023, 11:46 PM
(09-04-2023, 08:42 AM)Shannon Wrote: "Death" is just a transition from physical to non-physical.
In my scripts, I rely as heavily as I can on your own subconscious to make decisions for you about what should be done, how and at what speed, etc. I don't believe I can, nor presume to have the knowledge to, create scripts that are all coming from my personal knowledge and skill. That's also why I rely so heavily on he predictive models to help decide what goals each program should have. So by and large, I and my limited-ness have stepped out of the equation, and what is left is instructions that get you to find the necessary variable values for what works best for you. So really, you are the leader, not me. And a big part of this is due to the limits I have on what I know and what I can see of your unique situation, but easily as much comes down to the fact that the more you do of the process, the less you have to trust in me, my goals, my competence. And that has made a big difference in getting execution.
That makes sense. For you to try to pin down all of the variables that could affect a person sounds like a futile attempt. What I might have been feeling was the fear of taking the reins again in my life. Part of me seems to have been paralyzed by fear into not wanting to be responsible for my own life. It's akin to the learned helplessness we see in animals with high serotonin.
I wonder how this will affect my execution of OGSFv2 in the rest of the run and future subliminal runs. I strongly desire to redo and finish Maverick because despite the difficulty I faced on that sub, it was still rather enjoyable to run.
