Tonight I start my seventh cycle. I think I’m going to stop counting them from now on. My last cycle was rather uneventful, but a few positive signs.
There’s a girl at the gym who is not pretty at all, but has a killer body—she must have no body fat—and an unfriendly attitude to go with it. She’s not mean, but she’s cold, and comes across as superior. I ignore her—I don’t even look at her—and have been ignoring her for months because there’s no use being friendly to these types of girls. She treats everyone this way. Last time at the gym, I spoke with her briefly to ask if she was done on a machine that I wanted to use, and noticed that’s she’s behaving like she’s trying to be cool and hide her interest in me when she’s around me now. I unconsciously gave her a bit of attention later (thanks DMSI)—just a glance—and she almost squirmed with discomfort, looking away as if she had been caught paying attention to me rather than the other way around. Before you think maybe she’s been like this all along, and I’m just noticing it now, DMSI might be making me more perceptive—it’s possible—but I’m no dummy; I’m astute enough to know when a girl is interested, and when she’s not, and this girl was not interested.
Aside from that, this feels a lot like the SM lead-in from AM6. I’m being more flirtatious, women are more flirtatious with me, I build sexual tension when I can, and women like being around me. I’ve been getting a few complements here and there since starting DMSI, and I got one yesterday too (but it feels a bit pathetic recounting that).
All other positive signs disappeared unfortunately—possibly because I didn’t increase the number of loops. It felt like the right thing to do at the time, but I don’t know if it was with hindsight of my experience this past cycle. No more looks on the street, etc.
I’m still not getting what I want from DMSI, so I’m increasing to 5 loops. I really want to get to the other side of this, and feel confident in myself and my attractiveness to women so that I don’t feel so much rejection sensitivity, and it becomes a fun game to approach women that I find attractive. Oh, and I wish DMSI 3.5 had healing and clearing. I notice a lot of things pass by in my mind without being dealt with.
There’s a girl at the gym who is not pretty at all, but has a killer body—she must have no body fat—and an unfriendly attitude to go with it. She’s not mean, but she’s cold, and comes across as superior. I ignore her—I don’t even look at her—and have been ignoring her for months because there’s no use being friendly to these types of girls. She treats everyone this way. Last time at the gym, I spoke with her briefly to ask if she was done on a machine that I wanted to use, and noticed that’s she’s behaving like she’s trying to be cool and hide her interest in me when she’s around me now. I unconsciously gave her a bit of attention later (thanks DMSI)—just a glance—and she almost squirmed with discomfort, looking away as if she had been caught paying attention to me rather than the other way around. Before you think maybe she’s been like this all along, and I’m just noticing it now, DMSI might be making me more perceptive—it’s possible—but I’m no dummy; I’m astute enough to know when a girl is interested, and when she’s not, and this girl was not interested.
Aside from that, this feels a lot like the SM lead-in from AM6. I’m being more flirtatious, women are more flirtatious with me, I build sexual tension when I can, and women like being around me. I’ve been getting a few complements here and there since starting DMSI, and I got one yesterday too (but it feels a bit pathetic recounting that).
All other positive signs disappeared unfortunately—possibly because I didn’t increase the number of loops. It felt like the right thing to do at the time, but I don’t know if it was with hindsight of my experience this past cycle. No more looks on the street, etc.
I’m still not getting what I want from DMSI, so I’m increasing to 5 loops. I really want to get to the other side of this, and feel confident in myself and my attractiveness to women so that I don’t feel so much rejection sensitivity, and it becomes a fun game to approach women that I find attractive. Oh, and I wish DMSI 3.5 had healing and clearing. I notice a lot of things pass by in my mind without being dealt with.
