07-20-2023, 10:28 PM
Tonight I complete my first 4 on, 1 off cycle. It's been mostly uneventful this cycle aside from some subconscious signs of interest from some women yesterday. It has been a fairly smooth cycle until this morning when I experienced some turbulence. I've observed a pattern of resistance for me: sadness giving way to anger giving way to anxiety.
I woke up feeling some tension and sadness that converted to frustration and anger pretty quickly. In the past, I would get stuck in that anger based resistance, but today I laid in bed for a few hours and was able to release the anger and move past it. When the anger yielded, I experienced a fair bit of anxiety as if I had drank too many coffees. It was interesting to be able to observe the pattern.
I'm interested in one of the staff at the gym, and was intending to make a move today. I usually overthink these things, and overplay them to the point where the interaction becomes stilted. Today, I experienced a level of indifference about the outcome that I hadn't previously, and I attribute this completely to DMSI. It was nice to observe my thought patterns changing that way. I think that's pretty good inward progress for the first cycle.
The instructions tell me to increase the loops per day until I see results, but because I experienced resistance and was able to overcome it, I'm going to do another week of 1 loop per day, hoping to keep resistance at a manageable level so that I can move through it like I did today. I'm concerned that I'll get stuck in frustration and anger if I increase the pressure too much at this stage.
I woke up feeling some tension and sadness that converted to frustration and anger pretty quickly. In the past, I would get stuck in that anger based resistance, but today I laid in bed for a few hours and was able to release the anger and move past it. When the anger yielded, I experienced a fair bit of anxiety as if I had drank too many coffees. It was interesting to be able to observe the pattern.
I'm interested in one of the staff at the gym, and was intending to make a move today. I usually overthink these things, and overplay them to the point where the interaction becomes stilted. Today, I experienced a level of indifference about the outcome that I hadn't previously, and I attribute this completely to DMSI. It was nice to observe my thought patterns changing that way. I think that's pretty good inward progress for the first cycle.
The instructions tell me to increase the loops per day until I see results, but because I experienced resistance and was able to overcome it, I'm going to do another week of 1 loop per day, hoping to keep resistance at a manageable level so that I can move through it like I did today. I'm concerned that I'll get stuck in frustration and anger if I increase the pressure too much at this stage.
