oh boy... what a big reply...
there is good stuff in it but also a lot or incorrect assumptions... I'll address some quickly but not too much in detail because I do not want this journal to become a PUA forum...
1. I am not making any assumption about her body count... I do use Mode One communication and I have been clear about my interest... that is that I would like to find a stable partner without being officially a LTR... possibly more like a FWB with an emphasis on the friendship part and see where this leads us... On her side, single for about 5 years... Had a lot of random sex for the first 3 years of being single and is now looking for something more fullfilling (aka LTR)... I used to not make any concession about what type relation that I am seeking but I guess that I may have soften up a little bit lately since it starts to be a while that I am single and I start to kinda miss the good aspects of being in a LTR... She is very naughty, made a lot of wild sexual experiences and has a strong libido... Those are all important selection qualifications to me. So we have been talking sex and we have shared together our past experiences and our sexual preferences
2. Again, I am totally fine with the rejection... I am not upset against it happening... I am upset at myself for having wasted time getting to know her which is *my* strategy to get into a LTR while I should not have done it before validating her interest... We are not talking about an unreasonable amount (maybe 4h in the span of 2 weeks but transpose that into a year and it does a lot time... and that was enough investment for the rejection to pinch a bit my feelings)
3. I am not comparing my current results with some mental fantaisies in my head... I am comparing them with the results that I was getting 1-2 years ago... when SM,DMSI programming was still fresh in my head...
I know how to seduce a woman like an Alpha... That is demonstrating interest without any attachement to the outcome... not needing it... teasing the girl and give her room to chase you a bit... TBH, I might have lost some sexual confidence due to very little action lately that might be picked out subconsciously when meeting in person but beside that, I am feeling very confident as I have an excellent overall self-esteem (it must have been boosted with AM6)
So basically, I am taking full responsibility about the outcome.... correct that I am assuming her reason as she will not tell... but tell me what else can it be beside some shallow superficial reason like missing an inch in height or not projecting the sexual vibe of a mega alpha stud if she is feeling you a lot during talking over the phone with everything you share about you and than ends up doing a 180 on her feeling after few minutes during the first encounter? that seems like pretty much a reasonable thing to assume...
1. I don't care too much about rejection but wasting my time to know someone is what I want to correct... The is the time wasting part that piss me off... I will correct my behavior by doing minimal chat with the matches, just enough to qualify her as someone that I want to meet... but keep it at bare minimum and wait till first meet before investing more...
2. Physical attraction is so much intangible... most of it happens under the conscious radar... I kinda know that few programs here could amplify my attraction power... but as I said, despite this small disappointment, UMS goal is my priority...
there is good stuff in it but also a lot or incorrect assumptions... I'll address some quickly but not too much in detail because I do not want this journal to become a PUA forum...
1. I am not making any assumption about her body count... I do use Mode One communication and I have been clear about my interest... that is that I would like to find a stable partner without being officially a LTR... possibly more like a FWB with an emphasis on the friendship part and see where this leads us... On her side, single for about 5 years... Had a lot of random sex for the first 3 years of being single and is now looking for something more fullfilling (aka LTR)... I used to not make any concession about what type relation that I am seeking but I guess that I may have soften up a little bit lately since it starts to be a while that I am single and I start to kinda miss the good aspects of being in a LTR... She is very naughty, made a lot of wild sexual experiences and has a strong libido... Those are all important selection qualifications to me. So we have been talking sex and we have shared together our past experiences and our sexual preferences
2. Again, I am totally fine with the rejection... I am not upset against it happening... I am upset at myself for having wasted time getting to know her which is *my* strategy to get into a LTR while I should not have done it before validating her interest... We are not talking about an unreasonable amount (maybe 4h in the span of 2 weeks but transpose that into a year and it does a lot time... and that was enough investment for the rejection to pinch a bit my feelings)
3. I am not comparing my current results with some mental fantaisies in my head... I am comparing them with the results that I was getting 1-2 years ago... when SM,DMSI programming was still fresh in my head...
I know how to seduce a woman like an Alpha... That is demonstrating interest without any attachement to the outcome... not needing it... teasing the girl and give her room to chase you a bit... TBH, I might have lost some sexual confidence due to very little action lately that might be picked out subconsciously when meeting in person but beside that, I am feeling very confident as I have an excellent overall self-esteem (it must have been boosted with AM6)
So basically, I am taking full responsibility about the outcome.... correct that I am assuming her reason as she will not tell... but tell me what else can it be beside some shallow superficial reason like missing an inch in height or not projecting the sexual vibe of a mega alpha stud if she is feeling you a lot during talking over the phone with everything you share about you and than ends up doing a 180 on her feeling after few minutes during the first encounter? that seems like pretty much a reasonable thing to assume...
1. I don't care too much about rejection but wasting my time to know someone is what I want to correct... The is the time wasting part that piss me off... I will correct my behavior by doing minimal chat with the matches, just enough to qualify her as someone that I want to meet... but keep it at bare minimum and wait till first meet before investing more...
2. Physical attraction is so much intangible... most of it happens under the conscious radar... I kinda know that few programs here could amplify my attraction power... but as I said, despite this small disappointment, UMS goal is my priority...
