Cycle 4, stage 4 (month 3), day 5:
end of last week and during last week-end, I did work on a painful refactoring... It was to extract and centralize to a single element that was currently all over the place... At some point, I started to have doubt if that was the right thing to do...
but yesterday and today, I had to make some change and I got the confirmation that my refactoring was a really good idea. It starts to pay off big time...
Yesterday and today, I have been served in terms of volatility. It was a bit exciting and frustrating. Exciting because I did see that entering position was perfectly timed to benefit from the rapid and strong price drop.
However bugs or rough spot in the execution made the system miss a big chunk of profits that was available...
oh well, this is part of learning process... I now know that I have a working system in my hands... It is just a matter of fixing the remaining bugs and I'll have a winner.... Coincidentally, I am less than a week away from my birthday... This is an important date because last year, exactly at my birth day, this is when I have experienced a major breakthrough that did unlock my system in generating 10M in monthly trading volume... I have the feeling that I am unconsciously setting up my work to repeat the same pleasant pattern... That is, I am going to experience a major breakthrough in the next few days... It seems like this is what is going to happen...
I got the idea to set to myself the goal of bringing my system to a performance level where I can increase with confidence my $25 toy trading budget to a more serious 1K-2K budget by the end of this week...
As a side note, I have switched my listening from hybrid to ultrasonic silent track... idk, this may contribute to what I am experiencing...
Finally, on an unrelated note... I got another date last Friday... I felt that it was doing well... We did some heavy make out... I tried to close the deal on the spot... At least I tested the water... I kinda like to take my time... I like good sex but I do not need it... She resisted saying that she wanted a relation therefore, it was against her rules to go all in on the first date... I genuinely believe her because I felt that she was getting turned on as I was and she sincerely wanted to take her time but was interested in pursuing the idea to know me... So, I really respected her boundaries and her desire... and the date lasted 2h30...
when I came back to my place, she texted me to tell me that finally, she did not felt chemistry and did not want to see me again... TBH, that does not make any sense... I have made advances to uninterested women in the past... and they are way far less receptive that what I experienced with my last date... An uninterested woman will not stay with a guy 2h30 if she is uninterested...
IMHO, there is nothing to understand from that experience... it is all in her head and will most likely will always remain a mystery for eternity... I somehow entertain the idea what if... I was currently listening to SM/DMSI/X4A-1000... maybe the outcome would have been different... The temptation is great but I will resist it because achieving UMS goal is way more important to me...
Maybe next month... if I finally get the hoped breakthrough in my project, this will be the signal to move on a new program...
What I discover is that when I am looking into a potential sexual mate, I go beyond the physical attraction. I take the time to know the person and if I like what the person is, I am going to enjoy the sex even if she is not a 10... What I am discovering is that only a minority of Tinder women see things that way... No matter what you share prior to first date and how much she likes it, everything can be thrown out of the window in the first 5 seconds if lets say, you are half an inch shorter than what she like... This is my take away from my last few Tinder date experiences...
one possible explanation is that a woman too long in the market can have so much different partners so spoiled with very good sex that she become ultra picky and very hard to interest sexually.... It seems to me like a defect possibly permanent that will stop them from entering into a satisfying deep relation... I am not sure if these type of women are salvageable...
Bottomline, there is no point fighting reality... What piss me off the most, is not the rejection itself... It is to have invested time in getting to know her in the week or 2 prior the date that has basically zero value until she sees you and decides that she is interested in the first 5 seconds... From now on, I will better respect my time... because in reality... what I am more interesting in... it is sexual gratification.... getting into LTR is only an afterthought if the sex is good...
end of last week and during last week-end, I did work on a painful refactoring... It was to extract and centralize to a single element that was currently all over the place... At some point, I started to have doubt if that was the right thing to do...
but yesterday and today, I had to make some change and I got the confirmation that my refactoring was a really good idea. It starts to pay off big time...
Yesterday and today, I have been served in terms of volatility. It was a bit exciting and frustrating. Exciting because I did see that entering position was perfectly timed to benefit from the rapid and strong price drop.
However bugs or rough spot in the execution made the system miss a big chunk of profits that was available...
oh well, this is part of learning process... I now know that I have a working system in my hands... It is just a matter of fixing the remaining bugs and I'll have a winner.... Coincidentally, I am less than a week away from my birthday... This is an important date because last year, exactly at my birth day, this is when I have experienced a major breakthrough that did unlock my system in generating 10M in monthly trading volume... I have the feeling that I am unconsciously setting up my work to repeat the same pleasant pattern... That is, I am going to experience a major breakthrough in the next few days... It seems like this is what is going to happen...
I got the idea to set to myself the goal of bringing my system to a performance level where I can increase with confidence my $25 toy trading budget to a more serious 1K-2K budget by the end of this week...
As a side note, I have switched my listening from hybrid to ultrasonic silent track... idk, this may contribute to what I am experiencing...
Finally, on an unrelated note... I got another date last Friday... I felt that it was doing well... We did some heavy make out... I tried to close the deal on the spot... At least I tested the water... I kinda like to take my time... I like good sex but I do not need it... She resisted saying that she wanted a relation therefore, it was against her rules to go all in on the first date... I genuinely believe her because I felt that she was getting turned on as I was and she sincerely wanted to take her time but was interested in pursuing the idea to know me... So, I really respected her boundaries and her desire... and the date lasted 2h30...
when I came back to my place, she texted me to tell me that finally, she did not felt chemistry and did not want to see me again... TBH, that does not make any sense... I have made advances to uninterested women in the past... and they are way far less receptive that what I experienced with my last date... An uninterested woman will not stay with a guy 2h30 if she is uninterested...
IMHO, there is nothing to understand from that experience... it is all in her head and will most likely will always remain a mystery for eternity... I somehow entertain the idea what if... I was currently listening to SM/DMSI/X4A-1000... maybe the outcome would have been different... The temptation is great but I will resist it because achieving UMS goal is way more important to me...
Maybe next month... if I finally get the hoped breakthrough in my project, this will be the signal to move on a new program...
What I discover is that when I am looking into a potential sexual mate, I go beyond the physical attraction. I take the time to know the person and if I like what the person is, I am going to enjoy the sex even if she is not a 10... What I am discovering is that only a minority of Tinder women see things that way... No matter what you share prior to first date and how much she likes it, everything can be thrown out of the window in the first 5 seconds if lets say, you are half an inch shorter than what she like... This is my take away from my last few Tinder date experiences...
one possible explanation is that a woman too long in the market can have so much different partners so spoiled with very good sex that she become ultra picky and very hard to interest sexually.... It seems to me like a defect possibly permanent that will stop them from entering into a satisfying deep relation... I am not sure if these type of women are salvageable...
Bottomline, there is no point fighting reality... What piss me off the most, is not the rejection itself... It is to have invested time in getting to know her in the week or 2 prior the date that has basically zero value until she sees you and decides that she is interested in the first 5 seconds... From now on, I will better respect my time... because in reality... what I am more interesting in... it is sexual gratification.... getting into LTR is only an afterthought if the sex is good...
