06-01-2023, 08:17 AM
June 1st
Having entitlement rearing its head. The type of entitlement based on "the world owes me xyz" kinda thing. No communication, being left in the dark, vague shit. Now, there is part of me thats wondering if im impatient. But this whole "we call you back" is triggering abandonment issues, the not enough kinda thing, insecurities and doubt. I mean, going off at the people I booked with will only result in burned bridges. They will drop me and book someone else. Plus it will leave me with less options. They dont owe me anything, mistakes are made. Me blowing up will result in me being kicked out and rightfully so. I dont want to be an ungratefull demanding customer.
End rant.
Now, I catch lots of stares, me internally working through stuff seems to not affect the aura that much. Attractiveness of the type of women is also up a notch or 2. Good. Im more fluid, idgaf in public and whatever resists inside is losing. Im overall more social and dominant. Seeing myself differently, masculine, in its own league. Very cool.
Also had women ask me out today and rejecting them due to priorities doesnt seem to lessen the attraction as if it being an ongoing baseline. This is purely by choice, not out of fear. No escaping and avoiding, but me simply taking responsibility. Doesnt mean im not recruiting them to do things for me tho, I like giving women missions/tasks, ask them to do something for me. Its natural.
Having entitlement rearing its head. The type of entitlement based on "the world owes me xyz" kinda thing. No communication, being left in the dark, vague shit. Now, there is part of me thats wondering if im impatient. But this whole "we call you back" is triggering abandonment issues, the not enough kinda thing, insecurities and doubt. I mean, going off at the people I booked with will only result in burned bridges. They will drop me and book someone else. Plus it will leave me with less options. They dont owe me anything, mistakes are made. Me blowing up will result in me being kicked out and rightfully so. I dont want to be an ungratefull demanding customer.
End rant.
Now, I catch lots of stares, me internally working through stuff seems to not affect the aura that much. Attractiveness of the type of women is also up a notch or 2. Good. Im more fluid, idgaf in public and whatever resists inside is losing. Im overall more social and dominant. Seeing myself differently, masculine, in its own league. Very cool.
Also had women ask me out today and rejecting them due to priorities doesnt seem to lessen the attraction as if it being an ongoing baseline. This is purely by choice, not out of fear. No escaping and avoiding, but me simply taking responsibility. Doesnt mean im not recruiting them to do things for me tho, I like giving women missions/tasks, ask them to do something for me. Its natural.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
