09-06-2012, 05:30 PM
(09-05-2012, 11:42 AM)jimbobday Wrote: Gotta say im glad to hear im not alone on this one. This pretty much describes word for word my life over the last 3 years. I found medication helped a little with it but at the same time i was hiding away and distracting myself from facing it. Ive also found subs tend to make it worse but most likely due to the fact that they are dealing with fears etc.Im yet to find a therapist who really understands it though my current one does a little.
Glad to know I'm not the only one either. But yeah I've noticed that sometimes when a sub is affecting me my thoughts kind of go into overdrive. Relaxation and training my brain to not feel the need to obsessively go over stuff has helped a little. I really need to discipline my mind more and I believe that takes hard work. So while medication could be beneficial, I just wouldn't be able to tolerate such a foreign substance in my body.
(09-06-2012, 02:01 AM)Shannon Wrote: My thoughts are that fear is the root of anxiety which is the source of the need for control to deal with fear, which in turn is your source of OCD behavior, which itself is... seeking control. Fear seems to spawn "trees" of behavior responses.
I'm thinking that once I figure out how to deal with the root fears... if I even can... the rest will necessarily die too.
Nicely put Shannon, I couldn't agree more. I think before I used a lot of these subliminals my fear was a lot bigger. Now it's growing smaller, but it's still there. I'm still not exactly sure what the fear is tied to, but I think because of my overly sensitive nature things from my childhood might have affected me more than some other individuals. Overall I think it just involves a lot of rewriting of that negative programming I internalized over the years.
