Day 140 / 210,
I need to continue OF, because my results are deepening, and continues to deepen.
I believe that it's doing deeper work on my sexuality.
Approached a pretty woman at the gym.
On a scale of 1 to 10, it took about a 1 in Courage to muster and to go up to her in the squat rack.
I didn't put a ton of energy into the conversation; spoke with a level-head, was friendly, and asked for the Instagram. Ask I was asking, she was preparing to say 'no' my ask for her number (fair enough).
Haven't gotten the follow back from her yet. That's fine, but I would prefer if she did; I did notice her cheeks flush a little bit near the end, and she was definitely engaging with the conversation.
Felt like she was already mine to enjoy.
I'm noticing a sensitivity to my daily experience; taking in the beauty of life without the need for grand moments which spike dopamine.
Think of a Zen warrior in a garden surrounded by colorful blossoms; they are taking it all in, they are one with the world.
I can gain something substantive from a feminine woman, even on a video, without any expectations. At the same time, I'm longing for more of those experiences
I need to continue OF, because my results are deepening, and continues to deepen.
I believe that it's doing deeper work on my sexuality.
Approached a pretty woman at the gym.
On a scale of 1 to 10, it took about a 1 in Courage to muster and to go up to her in the squat rack.
I didn't put a ton of energy into the conversation; spoke with a level-head, was friendly, and asked for the Instagram. Ask I was asking, she was preparing to say 'no' my ask for her number (fair enough).
Haven't gotten the follow back from her yet. That's fine, but I would prefer if she did; I did notice her cheeks flush a little bit near the end, and she was definitely engaging with the conversation.
Felt like she was already mine to enjoy.
I'm noticing a sensitivity to my daily experience; taking in the beauty of life without the need for grand moments which spike dopamine.
Think of a Zen warrior in a garden surrounded by colorful blossoms; they are taking it all in, they are one with the world.
I can gain something substantive from a feminine woman, even on a video, without any expectations. At the same time, I'm longing for more of those experiences
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