11-26-2022, 01:45 PM
Day 119 / 210,
Time for a mid-run review.
A lot of the benefits that I've experienced from this run are a bit abstract and esoteric. I will do my best to list them here.
* As mentioned earlier, a drop in insincerity - sarcasm, irony, making my intentions muddy - and the emergence of a kinder, more earnest version of myself.
* When I'm in a meeting at work, I'm still cautious and considerate, trying to not speak out of turn - I'm only three months into a new role in a new career - but that maneuvering does not come with the feeling of worry or fear.
* A loss of dread about the future; I used to be very worried about what would happen if I got fired from my new tech job. Though my career is in its infancy, I figured that "I'll keep learning and apply to a new job". I'll be fine.
* As a metric, the time-to-act - on a needed action - is reduced. I have fewer internal discussions about it.
* I've surprisingly become less interested in dating. I thought that I would eliminate my approach anxiety and crush it at dating, but I question how much I really have in common with the women I'm pursuing, other than my physical attraction. The time and energy lost just to bust a nut with a pretty person with no common ground could be spent towards something more productive.
Current drawbacks:
* I've experienced an increase in dread and worry about competing in contact sports, as the prospect of it is higher than it's ever been. Practically, it would draw on a ton of my time, resources, energy, pulling them away from my current efforts, projects, and purpose, so it doesn't make sense. But, on a psychic level, I know that I'd like to perform at that level of pressure, and that it would benefit me as a person.
* I'm at a weird transitional period in my life, where I know that I need to keep doing my daily tasks, but the payoff is a while away, and so every week feels a lot like 'Groundhog Week'. Not 100% related to this sub, but something like UMS would possibly shift my weekly actions.
My intention is to run this sub until AT LEAST X-Mas 2022, but come the 5 month mark, I'll possibly be tempted to move on.
First choice for next sub: Ultimate Monetary Success (to develop financial freedom)
Second choice: Develop Maximum Sexual Irresistibility (perhaps to turn around my feelings about dating)
Time for a mid-run review.
A lot of the benefits that I've experienced from this run are a bit abstract and esoteric. I will do my best to list them here.
* As mentioned earlier, a drop in insincerity - sarcasm, irony, making my intentions muddy - and the emergence of a kinder, more earnest version of myself.
* When I'm in a meeting at work, I'm still cautious and considerate, trying to not speak out of turn - I'm only three months into a new role in a new career - but that maneuvering does not come with the feeling of worry or fear.
* A loss of dread about the future; I used to be very worried about what would happen if I got fired from my new tech job. Though my career is in its infancy, I figured that "I'll keep learning and apply to a new job". I'll be fine.
* As a metric, the time-to-act - on a needed action - is reduced. I have fewer internal discussions about it.
* I've surprisingly become less interested in dating. I thought that I would eliminate my approach anxiety and crush it at dating, but I question how much I really have in common with the women I'm pursuing, other than my physical attraction. The time and energy lost just to bust a nut with a pretty person with no common ground could be spent towards something more productive.
Current drawbacks:
* I've experienced an increase in dread and worry about competing in contact sports, as the prospect of it is higher than it's ever been. Practically, it would draw on a ton of my time, resources, energy, pulling them away from my current efforts, projects, and purpose, so it doesn't make sense. But, on a psychic level, I know that I'd like to perform at that level of pressure, and that it would benefit me as a person.
* I'm at a weird transitional period in my life, where I know that I need to keep doing my daily tasks, but the payoff is a while away, and so every week feels a lot like 'Groundhog Week'. Not 100% related to this sub, but something like UMS would possibly shift my weekly actions.
My intention is to run this sub until AT LEAST X-Mas 2022, but come the 5 month mark, I'll possibly be tempted to move on.
First choice for next sub: Ultimate Monetary Success (to develop financial freedom)
Second choice: Develop Maximum Sexual Irresistibility (perhaps to turn around my feelings about dating)
UMS v2 Journal (current) || Overcoming Fear 5.75G Journal
