Cycle 3, stage 4, day 22:
My day so far is going horribly wrong. Despite all the time and effort that I have put lately, the system performance is really bad today. Every single trade since yesterday evening has been a loss.
I attribute this bad performance to simply bad luck but I cannot make that conclusion without validating in detail the logs. It is also not impossible that I broke something in my latest intense refactoring session...
Update:
I just got the following thought... I am experiencing a big emotional roller coaster. Last week-end, I was feeling like a king, today I am feeling bad. I guess that it is totally normal to have good and bad days but if I were to guess, without being a psychiatrist, bipolarity must be something like that x100.
I don't know if what I am going to say is insanity but I have the feeling that my mood is affecting external events... ie: I'm in a good mood, good things happen... bad mood, shit happens... I wonder if up to a certain point, there is some truth in that... So if it is, I guess that our situation is an unconscious decision... and this is what IML programs are aiming to change...
Update #2:
Despite the shitty start, my day finally ended up to be quite good. Very productive. I am not sure how meaningful it may be but I had the time to edit close to 50 files today...
2 things pop in my head in the face of this realization.
1. I am stunned by how much I still find ideas to improve code that have matured over the last 3 years... I was expecting it to reach some sort of stability but I keep finding new ways to make things better
2. It is all good and well to improve the code but at some point... this needs to convert into money... This part has still to materialize.... not sure what that means that it did not happen yet...
My day so far is going horribly wrong. Despite all the time and effort that I have put lately, the system performance is really bad today. Every single trade since yesterday evening has been a loss.
I attribute this bad performance to simply bad luck but I cannot make that conclusion without validating in detail the logs. It is also not impossible that I broke something in my latest intense refactoring session...
Update:
I just got the following thought... I am experiencing a big emotional roller coaster. Last week-end, I was feeling like a king, today I am feeling bad. I guess that it is totally normal to have good and bad days but if I were to guess, without being a psychiatrist, bipolarity must be something like that x100.
I don't know if what I am going to say is insanity but I have the feeling that my mood is affecting external events... ie: I'm in a good mood, good things happen... bad mood, shit happens... I wonder if up to a certain point, there is some truth in that... So if it is, I guess that our situation is an unconscious decision... and this is what IML programs are aiming to change...
Update #2:
Despite the shitty start, my day finally ended up to be quite good. Very productive. I am not sure how meaningful it may be but I had the time to edit close to 50 files today...
2 things pop in my head in the face of this realization.
1. I am stunned by how much I still find ideas to improve code that have matured over the last 3 years... I was expecting it to reach some sort of stability but I keep finding new ways to make things better
2. It is all good and well to improve the code but at some point... this needs to convert into money... This part has still to materialize.... not sure what that means that it did not happen yet...
