Day 98 / 210,
The same day that I want to end my OF run, I've realized a major change in behavior.
I find that people are reacting more positively to me in general, and that I believe that this is because I've expressed myself much more SINCERELY.
No deflection, no sarcasm, no irony, no beating around the bush or conversation games.
When you're sarcastic / ironic and hard to decipher for your own amusement, you are - in a sense - abusing other people's sincerity. The only reason that recreational irony would be amusing is that the other person is being forthcoming in their thoughts and feelings, and you're short-circuiting their expectations that you'll behave in a similar way.
Recently, when I've done little conversational gambits, I'd catch it and express my true feelings afterwards so that there is no confusion.à
EDIT: What I think has gone behind these changes is my fear of having my real beliefs exposed and potentially criticized. If you're ever called out while being sarcastic, there's always the pansy-assed cop out tactic of saying "I wAs oNLy JoKIng!!@", then pretending that the other person is overreacting.
The same day that I want to end my OF run, I've realized a major change in behavior.
I find that people are reacting more positively to me in general, and that I believe that this is because I've expressed myself much more SINCERELY.
No deflection, no sarcasm, no irony, no beating around the bush or conversation games.
When you're sarcastic / ironic and hard to decipher for your own amusement, you are - in a sense - abusing other people's sincerity. The only reason that recreational irony would be amusing is that the other person is being forthcoming in their thoughts and feelings, and you're short-circuiting their expectations that you'll behave in a similar way.
Recently, when I've done little conversational gambits, I'd catch it and express my true feelings afterwards so that there is no confusion.à
EDIT: What I think has gone behind these changes is my fear of having my real beliefs exposed and potentially criticized. If you're ever called out while being sarcastic, there's always the pansy-assed cop out tactic of saying "I wAs oNLy JoKIng!!@", then pretending that the other person is overreacting.
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