09-05-2012, 10:16 AM
Ok so I'm sitting here and I'm trying to get a hold of all the thoughts buzzing around in my head. I'm starting to realize that the sheer quantity of these thoughts is what burns me out the most. I'm very obsessive and I get caught in these thought loops. Once I'm stuck in them it's hard to pull myself out, so it's important that I catch it before it happens.
Now I've never been diagnosed with OCD, but I do feel like I've got it to some degree. I don't engage in rituals though, most of the rituals are in the form of mental rumination. Like with a lot of disorders the answer seems to be medication. Something about serotonin not being balanced properly. I don't trust drugs a lot, especially when it's more of a guess and the substantial evidence still isn't there.
So I believe for me, OCD is a symptom of a need to control. I also believe it's due to having issues in my life, which are largely subconscious, and burning my brain out obsessing over how to fix them. Most of this can be helped by practicing being the watcher of thoughts and not becoming overly attached to them. But OCD is an anxiety spectrum disorder and anxiety is usually a product of fear. Again I come back to the fear and how it turns my world upside down. I believe that fear is being manifested in my conscious mind as OCD.
Now I've never been diagnosed with OCD, but I do feel like I've got it to some degree. I don't engage in rituals though, most of the rituals are in the form of mental rumination. Like with a lot of disorders the answer seems to be medication. Something about serotonin not being balanced properly. I don't trust drugs a lot, especially when it's more of a guess and the substantial evidence still isn't there.
So I believe for me, OCD is a symptom of a need to control. I also believe it's due to having issues in my life, which are largely subconscious, and burning my brain out obsessing over how to fix them. Most of this can be helped by practicing being the watcher of thoughts and not becoming overly attached to them. But OCD is an anxiety spectrum disorder and anxiety is usually a product of fear. Again I come back to the fear and how it turns my world upside down. I believe that fear is being manifested in my conscious mind as OCD.
