09-13-2022, 07:48 AM
Day 46 / 210,
Had an actual shift in my dreams last night.
Usually, when I have a "sex" dream, I usually have a woman who's game to sleep with me, but I find myself looking for a place to do the deed, and get distracted with some side quest (someone talks to us and pulls us away from the opportunity).
Last night, I was talking, and then fucking a woman probably 8-10 years younger than me (I'm 30) in the guest bedroom of my parents house. And I liked it. (Don't remember finishing in the dream). I even warned my mom "don't go in the guest bedroom" without feeling too bad about it.
I think this might signal that I've dropped some unconscious shame about sex.
Two nights ago, after a few days of feeling lackluster and unproductive, I felt a shift in my will. I began to demand of myself to apply my will against the universe and to bend it to my goals.
I'm working to develop firmer foundations in web dev and computer science (design patterns, database design) for the purpose of understanding and developing in web3. This will help fuel the next step of my career and an eventual business.
I've also built some momentum in my guitar practice and fitness. This momentum began to build A BIT with my singing, where I approached my teacher with questions on how to build a practice plan, etc.
Had an actual shift in my dreams last night.
Usually, when I have a "sex" dream, I usually have a woman who's game to sleep with me, but I find myself looking for a place to do the deed, and get distracted with some side quest (someone talks to us and pulls us away from the opportunity).
Last night, I was talking, and then fucking a woman probably 8-10 years younger than me (I'm 30) in the guest bedroom of my parents house. And I liked it. (Don't remember finishing in the dream). I even warned my mom "don't go in the guest bedroom" without feeling too bad about it.
I think this might signal that I've dropped some unconscious shame about sex.
Two nights ago, after a few days of feeling lackluster and unproductive, I felt a shift in my will. I began to demand of myself to apply my will against the universe and to bend it to my goals.
I'm working to develop firmer foundations in web dev and computer science (design patterns, database design) for the purpose of understanding and developing in web3. This will help fuel the next step of my career and an eventual business.
I've also built some momentum in my guitar practice and fitness. This momentum began to build A BIT with my singing, where I approached my teacher with questions on how to build a practice plan, etc.
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