09-01-2022, 12:33 PM
Day 34 / 210,
A deeper psychology to people's fear: worry of impact, and its consequences.
I notice that I give it my all when I'm punching the bag, or the air, but I become coquette about punching a living person, even when they tell me to hit harder.
If I won't do the latter, what's the point of doing the former?
Naturally, I understand that I won't have a training partner if I go for the knockout in my practice drills.
But I hold back due to worry about the consequences of my impact; I don't want to hurt or maim, or crack bones.
By analogy, I do well in practice, but I'm not applying my skills in a realistic scenario.
In fact, through my twenties, I've shied away from doing so.
This subliminal ought to remove this faulty safeguard, all while granting me the diligence to apply appropriate and proportional care in cases with actual stakes.
A deeper psychology to people's fear: worry of impact, and its consequences.
I notice that I give it my all when I'm punching the bag, or the air, but I become coquette about punching a living person, even when they tell me to hit harder.
If I won't do the latter, what's the point of doing the former?
Naturally, I understand that I won't have a training partner if I go for the knockout in my practice drills.
But I hold back due to worry about the consequences of my impact; I don't want to hurt or maim, or crack bones.
By analogy, I do well in practice, but I'm not applying my skills in a realistic scenario.
In fact, through my twenties, I've shied away from doing so.
This subliminal ought to remove this faulty safeguard, all while granting me the diligence to apply appropriate and proportional care in cases with actual stakes.
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