03-26-2022, 01:07 PM
since I wrote the last entry, the system is now around 7,500 order execution...
now that UMS is palpable... I kinda feel a bit dizzy... as if I realize that my life is about to significantly change and there is a part of me that has a fear concerning the change that it is about to occur...
UMS is clearly cleaning deep stuff for me allowing me to overcome those fears and the unconscious urge to self-sabotage to keep the comfortable status quo...
now that UMS is palpable... I kinda feel a bit dizzy... as if I realize that my life is about to significantly change and there is a part of me that has a fear concerning the change that it is about to occur...
UMS is clearly cleaning deep stuff for me allowing me to overcome those fears and the unconscious urge to self-sabotage to keep the comfortable status quo...
