11-10-2021, 10:08 PM
So I joined a support group for recovering nice guys. Had the first meeting today. I still can't really believe that I actually took action in this direction.
These men are so honest and open exposing their thoughts, fears and emotions. So much vulnerability. It's something I could really learn from. I think this group could really be good for me. Side note I think one of the group members is a forum member here lol, I'm just assuming from the way he spoke about guilt shame and fears.
I've been going extra hard on the loops lol. I know it's probably too much but I want to do it. Exhaust my brain so completely. Did 5 loops during the day while working and I have another 10 loops queued up for this evening+overnight. I'm definetly feeling the pressure in my head. I'm expecting some dreams tonight lol.
I definitely feel a shift in emotion and attitude since I started running the sub. Also more willingness to do things that I've been hesitant or afraid to do. Signed up for a dating app and started making a profile and swiping right. I've never done the online dating thing and I guess I've had anxiety that someone I know would find me on it, or even worse I might actually match with someone and have to meet them lol.
It's getting dark very early here now so I don't even feel like getting out of the house after work lately
These men are so honest and open exposing their thoughts, fears and emotions. So much vulnerability. It's something I could really learn from. I think this group could really be good for me. Side note I think one of the group members is a forum member here lol, I'm just assuming from the way he spoke about guilt shame and fears.
I've been going extra hard on the loops lol. I know it's probably too much but I want to do it. Exhaust my brain so completely. Did 5 loops during the day while working and I have another 10 loops queued up for this evening+overnight. I'm definetly feeling the pressure in my head. I'm expecting some dreams tonight lol.
I definitely feel a shift in emotion and attitude since I started running the sub. Also more willingness to do things that I've been hesitant or afraid to do. Signed up for a dating app and started making a profile and swiping right. I've never done the online dating thing and I guess I've had anxiety that someone I know would find me on it, or even worse I might actually match with someone and have to meet them lol.
It's getting dark very early here now so I don't even feel like getting out of the house after work lately
