Stage 1, day 4 (day 1 off):
My energy level is a bit higher than the last 3 days. It seems like the rest period is definitely benificial.
On the work aspect:
I did take care of things that I have dragged for too long to get money.
I am progressing a bit in my trading project:
1. I have identified a bug in my margin trading code. Finding it must have been on my todo list for months.
2. I have spotted an important optimization opportunity in a module that is core to my trading opportunity detection. Implementing it could have a significant impact of the memory usage and execution time. Implementing it might have an effect on the number of successful trades.
On the personal level:
It is very hard. It seems everything is coming at once.
1. A have a small pet animal that is on its last miles. It has a cyst that has been growing on one of its front legs. No point to go see a vet (but I might reconsider...) because it is a small rodent. The life expectency is 2-3 years and it is with us since October 2019. Its health did deteriorate very quickly since Thursday evening. The cyst has become so big that now walking has become very tedious. I'm not 100% sure but it now seems that it has become blind... I'm affected by the situation because it is very affectionate and it has been a great source of comfort during the lockdowns... I'm not even sure that it is going to survive the week-end...
2. My ex is moving out today. This is going to create a big void in the house that we have shared since 2008.
3. My ex sister in law is in intensive care. She got an urgent surgery last night for a intestinal perforation.
Any of these events by themselves are challenging alone. No idea the meaning of having all of them happening all at once but this is tough. I rarely feel sad. Last time that it did happen to me must have been when my mother passed away in 2018 while I was running AM6. I am feeling sad today. I give myself the permission to live this moment. It is going to feel better in the next few days...
My energy level is a bit higher than the last 3 days. It seems like the rest period is definitely benificial.
On the work aspect:
I did take care of things that I have dragged for too long to get money.
I am progressing a bit in my trading project:
1. I have identified a bug in my margin trading code. Finding it must have been on my todo list for months.
2. I have spotted an important optimization opportunity in a module that is core to my trading opportunity detection. Implementing it could have a significant impact of the memory usage and execution time. Implementing it might have an effect on the number of successful trades.
On the personal level:
It is very hard. It seems everything is coming at once.
1. A have a small pet animal that is on its last miles. It has a cyst that has been growing on one of its front legs. No point to go see a vet (but I might reconsider...) because it is a small rodent. The life expectency is 2-3 years and it is with us since October 2019. Its health did deteriorate very quickly since Thursday evening. The cyst has become so big that now walking has become very tedious. I'm not 100% sure but it now seems that it has become blind... I'm affected by the situation because it is very affectionate and it has been a great source of comfort during the lockdowns... I'm not even sure that it is going to survive the week-end...
2. My ex is moving out today. This is going to create a big void in the house that we have shared since 2008.
3. My ex sister in law is in intensive care. She got an urgent surgery last night for a intestinal perforation.
Any of these events by themselves are challenging alone. No idea the meaning of having all of them happening all at once but this is tough. I rarely feel sad. Last time that it did happen to me must have been when my mother passed away in 2018 while I was running AM6. I am feeling sad today. I give myself the permission to live this moment. It is going to feel better in the next few days...
