Day 75/180 OFF #2- Sunday 1 August - *Hybrid loop 5 cycle 1*
1) TOO hot to sleep at 28 C I think it was but felt like daytime 33 C here. Then phone notified me the live streamer was streaming again so I sat up in front of my cooling fan and enjoyed the stream. Wasnt sleepy either due to coca cola probably.
2) Slept, don't recall any dreams, woke after 5hrs sleep.
3) What I have noticed since waking up and until now (approximately 2 maybe 2.5hrs later) is anxiety and fear. I don't even know why but I'm fearing the future suddenly today. I feared the exam next week, I fear I dunno alsorts. Its crazy and not a nice feeling.
4) In the 2-2.5hrs since waking, I washed, ate cereal and then got on with studying the previous 7 days material and I didn't notice the fear during that but in the breaks especially now as I have a 10min break its apparent and very obvious.
5) Its been 7 days since I've been studying and I love it. Studying for 7 consecutive days where nothing else but making sure I study daily is the goal is not only terrific but amazing for me for someone like me its crazy!!!
I mean sure at times there are thoughts of ah its effort and work but overall once I get into it using the gamification system I'm using its not too bad and knowing I'm remembering stuff works even better.
6) The fear could be coming from the sheer volume of info I need to learn in the next 6months or so, maybe a year but I'm going to get on with it 1 way or another.
7) I just decided, after the exam next week ill contact my friend for info as mention in previous post and also get some things moving. In that time I can over come this fear, get back onto 4loops hybrid and increase confidence by learning extra info from my studying.
1) TOO hot to sleep at 28 C I think it was but felt like daytime 33 C here. Then phone notified me the live streamer was streaming again so I sat up in front of my cooling fan and enjoyed the stream. Wasnt sleepy either due to coca cola probably.
2) Slept, don't recall any dreams, woke after 5hrs sleep.
3) What I have noticed since waking up and until now (approximately 2 maybe 2.5hrs later) is anxiety and fear. I don't even know why but I'm fearing the future suddenly today. I feared the exam next week, I fear I dunno alsorts. Its crazy and not a nice feeling.
4) In the 2-2.5hrs since waking, I washed, ate cereal and then got on with studying the previous 7 days material and I didn't notice the fear during that but in the breaks especially now as I have a 10min break its apparent and very obvious.
5) Its been 7 days since I've been studying and I love it. Studying for 7 consecutive days where nothing else but making sure I study daily is the goal is not only terrific but amazing for me for someone like me its crazy!!!
I mean sure at times there are thoughts of ah its effort and work but overall once I get into it using the gamification system I'm using its not too bad and knowing I'm remembering stuff works even better.
6) The fear could be coming from the sheer volume of info I need to learn in the next 6months or so, maybe a year but I'm going to get on with it 1 way or another.
7) I just decided, after the exam next week ill contact my friend for info as mention in previous post and also get some things moving. In that time I can over come this fear, get back onto 4loops hybrid and increase confidence by learning extra info from my studying.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
