**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

Jake, I have concluded that your pattern of behavior and history of 100% failure with everything prior to OFv3, and your efforts to sabotage v3, point to you being one of those rare people who is here not to actually improve, but to get attention instead.  And your learned behavior for getting attention is failure and helplessness.  

Since your motivation is to fail to get that attention, you're doing everything in your power to fail and sabotage success.  So I have devised a plan to help you.  First, I'm banning you from our store.  While I will make less money because you won't be buying my products anymore, you will also not have access to more and more subs to use to endlessly perpetuate your attention seeking through failure patterns.  

Second, if you do not manage to make this program (OFv3) work, I'll be banning you from the forum as well.  

We are here to help people succeed, not enable them to endlessly fail in the pursuit of attention.  And since you seem to be a part of that 0.001% who can do this despite everything I have accomplished and done to the contrary, I now have no choice but to put to you an ultimatum: break your pattern of behavior and make progress, or we will have to break that pattern for you.

I appreciate your patronage through the years, but no person who really wants to succeed in life buys expensive self improvement programs and then self sabotages to the point of failure, and then does it again, over and over.  So I'm going to force a change with this course of action.  You either stop the self sabotage or you find somewhere else to seek attention.

1) 100% failure with the previous subs yes I agree. 

2) Self sabotage has been mentioned a few times above but what am I doing that is being regarded as self-sabotage? All I'm doing is hitting play and sleeping. Im then journally 'anything' (not everything as my life is private) that I think could be relevant to fear or confidence, isn't that the idea, so what is the self sabotage exactly please?

3) Im not looking for attention just journalling for 2 reasons:

a) To help you @Shannon   to see how I'm doing, as you are qualified to see things whether I do or do not
b) To help me to see over the course of time how I have changed with this sub. Catman pointed out I should stick to it daily and I did see the sense in that too.

Regarding the ban from the store I have pointed out at the start that I have no intention to purchase anything until I give this sub (OF3) the full 180 days and so far I seem to be doing well with that. 180 is also a  possible minimum, I may decide to stay on the sub even longer if it helps remove all fears though the model suggests 180 days is the course.

4) Banning from the forum if "I fail to make the program work" but how am I doing that when all I do is hit play and listen? 

Please help me to understand what you mean with all I have asked above.