**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

Thursday 20th May 2021 - Day 2
The point is I didnt feel fear nor recall feeling any apprehension. I felt well, confident and strong.

4/180
Day 4 off - Sat 22 May - OFF #2
Other than this I felt perhaps a little more free and calm. I had a little argument at my bro but less anxiety than usual and less feelings of stress perhaps. I think thats something to note that I dont feel as fearful perhaps or stressed out or maybe I dont sense as much anxiety when I could be triggered to usually feel them but so far unsure if its the sub or perhaps just the situation and how it played out today.

6/180
Day 6 ON - Mon 24 May - On #1


Ive had a decent day no issues and felt calm and nothing really to report.

lol I remembered something. So today I was talking to my older bro and sis and I told them off for something. I did it where I didnt stop for breath but was assertive. Im usually assertive I believe in my head anyway whether thats how I come across is a different thing. Point is when i did this I didnt think of it as a big deal nor anything different than the norm but as I stepped away I could hear my sister joking to my bro about how I was telling them off but she was saying it in a fun jovial way to suggest that the youngest is telling them both off. I remembered this because this isnt usual so mentioning it here.



Here are 3 examples that show, in my opinion, that you are executing. This isn't placebo this appears to be actual execution. If fear is as big a portion of your life as it appears to be then this is actual execution. Don't dilute this or write it off take a good hard look at your own words and try to find similar such behavior in your own journal if you haven't re read it yet.

also on a side note. Who cares if it's placebo. The "placebo effect" can be potent enough to heal people of terminal issues as well as other situations. It's just the power of your personhood. Instead of writing placebo off, how about you leverage it to execute change in your life. That journey is different for every person so I can't really comment much more. Happy hunting if you do decide to go on that one.

Thanks man @Chris P. Bacon I hear you and then what @Shannon said after that too. I think I gave a reply above before you did this to explain how what I had before June 10th such as the above may not be the case as I was at home in the UK which is a safety bubble but the real test is after this date for when I flew back to Europe at uni and its here that the real procrastination and avoidance and fear reveals itself. Most of my execution seems to be before June 10th too. 

but I'm on hybrid now so lets see how I go