So I think things are definitely changing for the better. I think when I first started the sub I noticed a lot more because it was a drastic shift. Whereas now I'm kind of leveling off and polishing it up. It feels good, it's definitely the much needed confidence boost I wanted.
One of the things I need to work on is just anticipatory anxiety and fear in general. I have a tendency to get ahead of myself and start fearing things more than I should, because I can't predict the future it's stupid to constantly worry about what could happen. I had a pretty bad first job experience as a teenager and I feel like it left somewhat of an impression on me. I know there are jobs out there where the bosses aren't major jerks, but because that's all I've experienced it's hard for me to form a positive idea of what a job is like. I'm still plugging away at it, some days are easier than others. Some days I feel like my life is a bit of a nightmare and I get overwhelmed.
But moving on to good news. I started making music again. Specifically drum and bass. For a while I stayed away from it because of all the anxiety associated with it, but lately I've just been pushing through it and just doing it. It's not easy and I do have a tendency to burn myself out and get a little obsessive about it. Sometimes when I get frustrated though it's the worst feeling and I feel like my perfectionist tendencies prevent me from seeing the progress I've made.
I have to say though just having something that I'm sort of confident in makes me feel better. It also helps take my mind off things for a while.
Oh man! Just saw ASC 5G in the shop, getting that now! This is going to be awesome. Shannon if you are reading this, thank you so much. I can't wait to give this a go.
One of the things I need to work on is just anticipatory anxiety and fear in general. I have a tendency to get ahead of myself and start fearing things more than I should, because I can't predict the future it's stupid to constantly worry about what could happen. I had a pretty bad first job experience as a teenager and I feel like it left somewhat of an impression on me. I know there are jobs out there where the bosses aren't major jerks, but because that's all I've experienced it's hard for me to form a positive idea of what a job is like. I'm still plugging away at it, some days are easier than others. Some days I feel like my life is a bit of a nightmare and I get overwhelmed.
But moving on to good news. I started making music again. Specifically drum and bass. For a while I stayed away from it because of all the anxiety associated with it, but lately I've just been pushing through it and just doing it. It's not easy and I do have a tendency to burn myself out and get a little obsessive about it. Sometimes when I get frustrated though it's the worst feeling and I feel like my perfectionist tendencies prevent me from seeing the progress I've made.
I have to say though just having something that I'm sort of confident in makes me feel better. It also helps take my mind off things for a while.
Oh man! Just saw ASC 5G in the shop, getting that now! This is going to be awesome. Shannon if you are reading this, thank you so much. I can't wait to give this a go.
