Feelings of anger & frustration & slight depression came up today, I Had tried switching to OF v3 again after that. (Did 1 loop) But I did another 2 or 3 loops of UM v2 & I'm back on that.
I decided to be proactive about my anger & sadness feeling & do what I can to reverse it, by cleaning up a bit, cooking Pad Thai, & Just being sober & not overthinking it.
I also put up some ads for my business & got a job coming up Sunday because of it.
Feeling better now, I'm dissapointed in myself because I haven't been able to save up money for Medellin, due to my spending habits. So I am going to kick things into overdrive from here on & not spend any money on anything excess.
That being said, I've been able to pay off some debt that I had, and I paid off my friends that I owed money too. So I haven't been completely wasting my money, but Still I feel like I spent way too much on things that I could have avoided.
But I did have some reasons for doing so, Some good things came out of me spending that money, but still I did also spend money unnecessarily at times. I'm not worried about it, but I really would like to go back to Medellin for AT LEAST 3 months this year. & I WILL ACHIEVE THAT. Maybe even 5-7 months. Just gotta some marketting my new business, because the profit margins on that is awesome.
Once I get some customers with that, I should be in a really good financial position. If I save up 13 000 I can go to Medellin & live pretty good for 4 months at least. Or live REALLY REALLY good for 3 months. It really depends on how much I want to date women while I'm there, and how much I spend on substances & alcohol, & how Much I eat out, pun intended.
I don't know why but typing this out right now is making me feel better about my situation, because I realize how in control I am over my finances & that I shouldn't worry, everything will fall into place. Just have too stop spending money thats all.
I decided to be proactive about my anger & sadness feeling & do what I can to reverse it, by cleaning up a bit, cooking Pad Thai, & Just being sober & not overthinking it.
I also put up some ads for my business & got a job coming up Sunday because of it.
Feeling better now, I'm dissapointed in myself because I haven't been able to save up money for Medellin, due to my spending habits. So I am going to kick things into overdrive from here on & not spend any money on anything excess.
That being said, I've been able to pay off some debt that I had, and I paid off my friends that I owed money too. So I haven't been completely wasting my money, but Still I feel like I spent way too much on things that I could have avoided.
But I did have some reasons for doing so, Some good things came out of me spending that money, but still I did also spend money unnecessarily at times. I'm not worried about it, but I really would like to go back to Medellin for AT LEAST 3 months this year. & I WILL ACHIEVE THAT. Maybe even 5-7 months. Just gotta some marketting my new business, because the profit margins on that is awesome.
Once I get some customers with that, I should be in a really good financial position. If I save up 13 000 I can go to Medellin & live pretty good for 4 months at least. Or live REALLY REALLY good for 3 months. It really depends on how much I want to date women while I'm there, and how much I spend on substances & alcohol, & how Much I eat out, pun intended.
I don't know why but typing this out right now is making me feel better about my situation, because I realize how in control I am over my finances & that I shouldn't worry, everything will fall into place. Just have too stop spending money thats all.
