Day 42/180 OFF #1- Tues 29 June
So yesterday for me was a big big deal as due to how I felt it was evident that the sub is working and I am executing. So day 40 im more proactive and less procrastinating on just everyday tasks and chores and on day 41 im listening in the day and feeling irritation and chaos. So I cant wait to really push this sub as far as I can to get where I need to be on day 180.
23% complete. If I simply take this as a linear progression then wow I still have 4 more of these yet to complete. (approx)
Anyway on to today....
1) Got to bed around 1am, watched shows/internet until I slept around 3.30-3.45am.
2) Woke at 9am and unlike other mornings this time I stayed awake and fought the urge to fall back to sleep. I went to the bathroom, returned back to bed and stayed awake with the help of Youtube.
3) At 1 point during watching a youtube video i actually remarked to myself something on the lines of "what on earth am I doing wasting my time like this". It was new for me, as if I had broken through the 4th wall as they say in the movies and was speaking to myself in the 3rd person. As if I was having a conversation with myself rather than simply having a fleeting thought.
4) Finally got out of bed after an hour and then made and ate breakfast and put the laundry on (washing machine).
5) I saw i had a few minutes spare until 1pm so decided to log on and check emails and this forum and thus here I am now am (1.08pm).
6) I woke feeling fine, of course I was fighting to stay awake since I only slept less than normal but otherwise I dont feel the chaos and angst of yesterday, well not so far. I have the desire to get on with things today as yesterday was spent procrastinating A LOT due to the irritated feeling I had. Not a full 100% full steam ahead, warp speed at maximum kind of light speed 88MPH motivation but the desire to act is still something
So basically not playing the sub has been a welcome to reset my mind from yesterdays turmoil.
So yesterday for me was a big big deal as due to how I felt it was evident that the sub is working and I am executing. So day 40 im more proactive and less procrastinating on just everyday tasks and chores and on day 41 im listening in the day and feeling irritation and chaos. So I cant wait to really push this sub as far as I can to get where I need to be on day 180.
23% complete. If I simply take this as a linear progression then wow I still have 4 more of these yet to complete. (approx)
Anyway on to today....
1) Got to bed around 1am, watched shows/internet until I slept around 3.30-3.45am.
2) Woke at 9am and unlike other mornings this time I stayed awake and fought the urge to fall back to sleep. I went to the bathroom, returned back to bed and stayed awake with the help of Youtube.
3) At 1 point during watching a youtube video i actually remarked to myself something on the lines of "what on earth am I doing wasting my time like this". It was new for me, as if I had broken through the 4th wall as they say in the movies and was speaking to myself in the 3rd person. As if I was having a conversation with myself rather than simply having a fleeting thought.
4) Finally got out of bed after an hour and then made and ate breakfast and put the laundry on (washing machine).
5) I saw i had a few minutes spare until 1pm so decided to log on and check emails and this forum and thus here I am now am (1.08pm).
6) I woke feeling fine, of course I was fighting to stay awake since I only slept less than normal but otherwise I dont feel the chaos and angst of yesterday, well not so far. I have the desire to get on with things today as yesterday was spent procrastinating A LOT due to the irritated feeling I had. Not a full 100% full steam ahead, warp speed at maximum kind of light speed 88MPH motivation but the desire to act is still something
So basically not playing the sub has been a welcome to reset my mind from yesterdays turmoil.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
