Day 40/180 ON #1- SUN 27 June - (1st day of 3 loops - before was 2 loops 2 days on and 2 days off)
1) I again didnt feel the desire to sleep so in bed watching tv shows on my phone and youtube etc until I fell asleep.
2) Slept around 3-3.30am woke around 11am.
3) Had a dream I think it was 2 dreams actually. 1 was about me in a car with I think my sister driving around some old english style home, the kind of home Ron Weasley and his family live in from the Harry Potter movies, kind of an old lady that lives in the shoe kids nursery rhyme style building. The rest of the dream I dont recall.
The second dream had the girl who I had oneitis for in it, in bed next to me. I again cant recall the dream. I know that I had thought about her in the evening as he has a snapchat story posted that I ignored so maybe this dream wasnt OFs doing.
4) Regarding oneitis girl, I am realising she doesnt obviously care and give a shit and so this rejection is what bothers me. The fact that its her isnt the issue its the fact that im rejected by a girl I think. I dont know how else to explain it.
5) So I woke feeling fine, not tired, not stressed, nothing at all. I felt normal, fully refreshed and blissful to be honest and obviously wondered why when I had increased from 2 loops to 3 loops. I due to this line of thought then surmised I should increase the intensity further then. So i have asked shannon on his discussion journal regarding the best way to do this.
6) I feel less lazy today. I made a big breakfast when I had no plan to and didnt really know what to have for breakfast and then after eating didnt feel so lazy so decided ok I will do some tasks, first of which was this journal update before I forgot anything.
7) I did forget something lol between waking up and having a wash, I watched youtube and chilled out on my bed for maybe an hour. I call this laziness and I dunno. Im not depressed yet cant be bothered to get up sometimes and i call that laziness.
8) Out of all songs and musics that get me juiced up to get active, there seems to be only 1 or 2 tracks from a movie soundtrack. I have that playing now and yes im ready to get things done! This is the effect im hoping the subs will eventually have on me 1 day.
1) I again didnt feel the desire to sleep so in bed watching tv shows on my phone and youtube etc until I fell asleep.
2) Slept around 3-3.30am woke around 11am.
3) Had a dream I think it was 2 dreams actually. 1 was about me in a car with I think my sister driving around some old english style home, the kind of home Ron Weasley and his family live in from the Harry Potter movies, kind of an old lady that lives in the shoe kids nursery rhyme style building. The rest of the dream I dont recall.
The second dream had the girl who I had oneitis for in it, in bed next to me. I again cant recall the dream. I know that I had thought about her in the evening as he has a snapchat story posted that I ignored so maybe this dream wasnt OFs doing.
4) Regarding oneitis girl, I am realising she doesnt obviously care and give a shit and so this rejection is what bothers me. The fact that its her isnt the issue its the fact that im rejected by a girl I think. I dont know how else to explain it.
5) So I woke feeling fine, not tired, not stressed, nothing at all. I felt normal, fully refreshed and blissful to be honest and obviously wondered why when I had increased from 2 loops to 3 loops. I due to this line of thought then surmised I should increase the intensity further then. So i have asked shannon on his discussion journal regarding the best way to do this.
6) I feel less lazy today. I made a big breakfast when I had no plan to and didnt really know what to have for breakfast and then after eating didnt feel so lazy so decided ok I will do some tasks, first of which was this journal update before I forgot anything.
7) I did forget something lol between waking up and having a wash, I watched youtube and chilled out on my bed for maybe an hour. I call this laziness and I dunno. Im not depressed yet cant be bothered to get up sometimes and i call that laziness.
8) Out of all songs and musics that get me juiced up to get active, there seems to be only 1 or 2 tracks from a movie soundtrack. I have that playing now and yes im ready to get things done! This is the effect im hoping the subs will eventually have on me 1 day.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
