06-18-2021, 09:15 AM
Day 32
I planned on listening to two loops last night, but as I was crawling in bed, three loops called to me. That's what I did.
I dreamed that I was in two-story building with a square hole in the floor that connected to the floor beneath by a ladder. While standing near the hole in the floor, something beneath exploded. A little girl was frantically trying to climb up the ladder to get away. Her skin had already been charred. I grabbed her, pulled her up to me and jumped into a nearby room in attempt to shield us from the intense heat. At that point, a narrator began describing our imminent doom as the heat consumed us. I remember feeling fear and sadness as I realized that I was too helpless to protect this frightened, hurt little girl. Then I woke up.
After falling asleep again, my next dream was of me hanging out at a laid back shopping center in a beach town while I was supposed to be at work. I was concerned about how I was going to explain it to my boss, but that didn't deter me from opting to play over working.
I had a long, solid night of sleep. Today I feel free. It's a beautiful day and I want to do something fun. I'm considering making a purchase that I decided not to make in the past. It's something I would only use temporarily until I upgrade. In the past, I've typically exercised an all or nothing mentality. Today, I feel more willing to settle for something less than the ultimate goal so my family and I can have some immediate enjoyment.
In my adult life, I've struggled to stop and smell the roses. Today, it feels like I might've released whatever has tethered me to that mindest. I feel really good right now. Emotionally, I feel like an optimistic pre-teen kid. Hopefully this continues.
Although tonight would be my ASRB2 break, I'm considering another night of listening. As usual, I'll get a better sense of what to do as the day progresses.
I planned on listening to two loops last night, but as I was crawling in bed, three loops called to me. That's what I did.
I dreamed that I was in two-story building with a square hole in the floor that connected to the floor beneath by a ladder. While standing near the hole in the floor, something beneath exploded. A little girl was frantically trying to climb up the ladder to get away. Her skin had already been charred. I grabbed her, pulled her up to me and jumped into a nearby room in attempt to shield us from the intense heat. At that point, a narrator began describing our imminent doom as the heat consumed us. I remember feeling fear and sadness as I realized that I was too helpless to protect this frightened, hurt little girl. Then I woke up.
After falling asleep again, my next dream was of me hanging out at a laid back shopping center in a beach town while I was supposed to be at work. I was concerned about how I was going to explain it to my boss, but that didn't deter me from opting to play over working.
I had a long, solid night of sleep. Today I feel free. It's a beautiful day and I want to do something fun. I'm considering making a purchase that I decided not to make in the past. It's something I would only use temporarily until I upgrade. In the past, I've typically exercised an all or nothing mentality. Today, I feel more willing to settle for something less than the ultimate goal so my family and I can have some immediate enjoyment.
In my adult life, I've struggled to stop and smell the roses. Today, it feels like I might've released whatever has tethered me to that mindest. I feel really good right now. Emotionally, I feel like an optimistic pre-teen kid. Hopefully this continues.
Although tonight would be my ASRB2 break, I'm considering another night of listening. As usual, I'll get a better sense of what to do as the day progresses.
