Cheers Guys. I've decided to look for a place that isn't so crowded but still very social. That place was just to far out of my comfort zone that it made me jump right back inside myself and feel so unbelievably uncomfortable. As for the social anxiety its coming and going a bit depending on the situation. Surprisingly its worse with people that I know from along time ago but haven't seen in a while. Its worse with them than with new people. I think a lot of it relates back to the fact that I was always so passive and quiet in the past with them and I haven't let go of that.
Back to RNW. I've noticed lately that i'm alot more accepting of change now and generally been a lot happier in life and a lot more relaxed. I have the odd down day but most of the time i'm pretty happy. Some of the happiest I've been in my life. I've also started to really let go of expectations as well from subs and aren't so worried about things that are going on with my life. Which is such a change.
I've been a lot more calmly assertive as well instead of just being angry. I had an interesting comment from my boss as well. I'm a manager and have to deal with staff all the time but this one time my boss heard me dealing with a staff member who wasn't performing and came over to commend me on how well I handled the situation saying that he would have lost his cool but I was able to stay calm and not get emotions involved while still being very direct.
I've also noticed I almost get an intuitive sense to where my issues lay without having to analytically dissect then all the time. Theres a few things that have come up. Self confidence and Fear of rejection being two of them. I've realized that what I once thought was fear of abandonment stems from fear of rejection. I'm not sure how these came up but it was like I just knew and then all the evidence for them fell into place kind of like my subconscious telling me what was up and where I needed to work on.
So with that I've decided to keep RNW to 2 months then do 2 months ASC 5G before starting alpha. I still believe very strongly that RNW has helped so much with my stubbornness and complete and utter aversion to change
EDIT: I would love to run WM but unfortunately I know I need to work through ASC and AM5 first but at this point in time WM is next on my list after AM5. Also have had a lot more random women smiling at me lately not to sure what thats about buts its pretty cool but at the same time really don't care as much at the moment
Back to RNW. I've noticed lately that i'm alot more accepting of change now and generally been a lot happier in life and a lot more relaxed. I have the odd down day but most of the time i'm pretty happy. Some of the happiest I've been in my life. I've also started to really let go of expectations as well from subs and aren't so worried about things that are going on with my life. Which is such a change.
I've been a lot more calmly assertive as well instead of just being angry. I had an interesting comment from my boss as well. I'm a manager and have to deal with staff all the time but this one time my boss heard me dealing with a staff member who wasn't performing and came over to commend me on how well I handled the situation saying that he would have lost his cool but I was able to stay calm and not get emotions involved while still being very direct.
I've also noticed I almost get an intuitive sense to where my issues lay without having to analytically dissect then all the time. Theres a few things that have come up. Self confidence and Fear of rejection being two of them. I've realized that what I once thought was fear of abandonment stems from fear of rejection. I'm not sure how these came up but it was like I just knew and then all the evidence for them fell into place kind of like my subconscious telling me what was up and where I needed to work on.
So with that I've decided to keep RNW to 2 months then do 2 months ASC 5G before starting alpha. I still believe very strongly that RNW has helped so much with my stubbornness and complete and utter aversion to change
EDIT: I would love to run WM but unfortunately I know I need to work through ASC and AM5 first but at this point in time WM is next on my list after AM5. Also have had a lot more random women smiling at me lately not to sure what thats about buts its pretty cool but at the same time really don't care as much at the moment
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
