**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

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Day 8 OFF - Wed 26 May - OFF #1 - part 2...

So this is a conclusion to the post that I created early today in the hours of the morning when I listened to the sub by mistake.

So today not felt or noticed anything that I could say i need to add as data sadly.

I did get a thought about how I am a perfectionist and want everything set up properly before starting to study or do such academic things. Everything else I can do on a whim but its as if I lack confidence in myself perhaps and feel for studying I must be in the right place, in the right time with the right set-up and also spent the right amount of stuctured time. I think this is it that I feel I must be very structured when it comes to studying rather than relaxed and chilled. perhaps this is due to studying always being seen as that task that demands mental effort and cannot be done in a relaxed way I dont know but either way this was a fleeting thought that i had that ive no elaborated on with some hindsight and whilst typing.

Other than this nothing else to report and so I cannot say if I am executing or not. I respect how others have thought I am but I have remained diplomatic and patient. For now I dont seem to be executing sadly

I also saw due to a reply from shannon on another thread that popped up on top of the thread lists that there is a new MLS released and it has procrastination as 1 of its sub goals. That sub alas would have perhaps been perfect for me as it deals with why I came to this place to begin with, that to deal with studying and procrastination lol However I know i know since OF 3 is FRM 5.0 now then this is far better for me and hopefully will deal with all my studying fears and woes!

I just cant wait for this thing to work lol even with an extra day of listening today which was by mistake i havent noticed anything. To be honest as my pervious post should have said if it didnt, that whilst doing my work and listening to US through my phone I felt nothing and wondered is it even doing anything haha

Fingers crossed I am executing this! - I am tempted to play this sub daily for 1 loop with NO days off until I get somewhere.... wonder what @Shannon may make of this after my 14th day is done.

im going to list my dates for my own self so I can keep a note of days...

Day 1 On - Wednesday 19 May
Day 2 On - Thursday 20 May

Day 3 off - Fri 21 May
Day 4 off - Sat 22 May
Day 5 off - Sun 23 May

Day 6 ON - Mon 24 May
Day 7 ON - Tues 25 May

Day 8 OFF - Wed 26 May
- done so far -

Day 9 OFF - Thurs 27 May - today
Day 10 OFF - Fri 28 May

Day 11 ON - Sat 29 May
Day 12 ON - Sun 30 May

Day 13 Off - Monday 31 May
Day 14 Off - Tuesday 1 June

*(possible time to change things - ask Shannon if should then how)* - current thought is to remain at 1 loop as I like this but to do daily with no days off.

Day 15 Off - Wednesday 2 June

Day 16 On - Thursday 3 June
Day 17 On - Friday 4 June

Day 18 Off - Sat 5 June
Day 19 Off - Sun 6 June
Day 20 Off - Mon 8 June

Day 21 On - Tues 9 June
Day 22 On - Wed 10 June

Day 23 Off - Thurs 11 June
Day 24 Off - Fri 12 June
Day 26 Off - Sat 13 June