05-25-2021, 03:58 PM
(This post was last modified: 05-25-2021, 05:47 PM by NOMAD.
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Day 8 (cont'd)
I had my first episode of obvious internal struggle today. First, an event at work triggered intense anger in me. I was so angry that I could feel my pulse in my entire face. Later, I began to ruminate and fears began to surface. Shortly after the fears surfaced, I had an intense craving for more loops. This craving was beyond anything I've experienced with subs before. It was on par with craving alcohol after a really stressful week. That craving had subsided until I began typing about it. Now I'm wanting more input again.
I had my first episode of obvious internal struggle today. First, an event at work triggered intense anger in me. I was so angry that I could feel my pulse in my entire face. Later, I began to ruminate and fears began to surface. Shortly after the fears surfaced, I had an intense craving for more loops. This craving was beyond anything I've experienced with subs before. It was on par with craving alcohol after a really stressful week. That craving had subsided until I began typing about it. Now I'm wanting more input again.
