**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

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Day 6 ON - Mon 24 May - On #1

So didnt sleep all night due to the webinar at 6.30 that NEVER bloody happened lol so got to bed and watched youtube etc Wasnt tired until around 10am then fell asleep and listened to the loop. Only thing I changed a little was before the phone (my s10) was on a chair on my left side of the bed pointed towards my shoulder , neck and head but, this time it was top of my head where I could fit it before my pillow. So to explain the way my bed is, there is space for the phone then a gap then my mattress starts upon which next is my pillow on which is my head. So the phone was to the right projecting from the top right of my head this time. Just changed it as its a little closer and wondered if it would benefit me or not (tbh doubt it made much difference anyway) so ill stick to the chair format going forward.

I only got 5hours sleep but I woke without the same heavy tiredness or fatigue. However yes rest of the day was tiring and I knew this was the lack of sleep not the sub.

Nothing really else to report however I did read shannon's journal and he mentioned a backache which he attributed i think to the sub. Well ive had a sore hip for 2 weeks so this wasnt the sub however yesterday I noticed a little soreness in the left side of my middle back. Odd however not today. It was a little soreness not badly painful but it came from nowhere as far as I can tell.

Ive had a decent day no issues and felt calm and nothing really to report.

its clear with this sub, time will tell how it does so ill keep the journal updated but it will not become clear to me if im executing until cycles or weeks have passed i think.

Oh I did have a dream. It was weird and I tried to remember it but its hard to remember except that it involved my university apartments landlord and held absolutely no significance to me at all. I as usual only remember dreams when my sleep cycle is screwed or I wake up during sleep as is common in sleep research anyway. So is the dream relevant probably not but im including it.

Addendum:

lol I remembered something. So today I was talking to my older bro and sis and I told them off for something. I did it where I didnt stop for breath but was assertive. Im usually assertive I believe in my head anyway whether thats how I come across is a different thing. Point is when i did this I didnt think of it as a big deal nor anything different than the norm but as I stepped away I could hear my sister joking to my bro about how I was telling them off but she was saying it in a fun jovial way to suggest that the youngest is telling them both off. I remembered this because this isnt usual so mentioning it here.