05-21-2021, 06:55 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-25-2021, 05:45 PM by NOMAD.
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Day 4
I woke up this morning with the desire to just stay here and lie comfortably in bed. The feeling wan't based in exhaustion or fatigue. It was comfort. It was reminiscent of being in my early 20s. I was single, highly anxious, and had a tendency to drown my anxiety in alcohol. During this time in my life, I spent a lot of time in bed nursing my emotional (and alcohol-induced) wounds. This morning was similar, minus the high anxiety and hangover. I lied here, allowing myself to just be. It felt very balanced and for lack of better description, nice. It's a similar 'feel' to what I experienced while running the original Universal Detox sub (I loved that sub).
I'm doing my best not to place any hopes and expectations on OFv3. So far, it's a night and day difference from my experience with OFv2. It feels broader, like it has reached so far out that it has closed off escape routes that my subconscious isn't even aware of yet. The mental image I have is of standing in the middle of a broad stretch of land in, say, Montana. I can see the mountains off in the distance. What I cannot see is the wooden fence that surrounds the place. There's a lot of territory to explore before I get to that fence. By comparison, OFv2 had me feeling like a caged animal.
I woke up this morning with the desire to just stay here and lie comfortably in bed. The feeling wan't based in exhaustion or fatigue. It was comfort. It was reminiscent of being in my early 20s. I was single, highly anxious, and had a tendency to drown my anxiety in alcohol. During this time in my life, I spent a lot of time in bed nursing my emotional (and alcohol-induced) wounds. This morning was similar, minus the high anxiety and hangover. I lied here, allowing myself to just be. It felt very balanced and for lack of better description, nice. It's a similar 'feel' to what I experienced while running the original Universal Detox sub (I loved that sub).
I'm doing my best not to place any hopes and expectations on OFv3. So far, it's a night and day difference from my experience with OFv2. It feels broader, like it has reached so far out that it has closed off escape routes that my subconscious isn't even aware of yet. The mental image I have is of standing in the middle of a broad stretch of land in, say, Montana. I can see the mountains off in the distance. What I cannot see is the wooden fence that surrounds the place. There's a lot of territory to explore before I get to that fence. By comparison, OFv2 had me feeling like a caged animal.
