**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

Thursday 20th May 2021 - Day 2

Played on my s10 phone today (not s7 edge as I had yesterday). Volume 13/15.

Hit play, then put head onto pillow. Time was around 6.30am.

Soon as my head hit the pillow this time there was NO negative or fearful thoughts BUT BUT BUT I did feel that there was some pressure (not tension as that to me implies headache of sorts or a troublesome feeling but this was a pressure feeling, not unbearable but there was something going on in my head).

This pressure feeling was around my head. So do any of you remember 80s sweatbands that went around the forehead and back of the head? Or perhaps the 80s style head band worn by Daniel San in Karate Kid or Rambo? I know Shannon will when he reads this. So I thought about this when I felt this pressure that it around the area a head band would be worn. I also then wondered if from there it was also above it to the top of the head. I was considering this as I lay in bed but sadly cant remember now.

The point is that yes I did feel some pressure.

I woke again tired and groggy as yesterday.

Today I have had fearful thoughts surrounding my future once I finish my degree, but also the fact that as a mature student ive wasted so many years of my life and only now im finally doing what ive always wanted to do but I feel im not the age I am but im at the age a new graduate would be, as if im decades behind where I should be. I also had fearful thoughts around not knowing enough to do the job and how will I even cope.

I then got talking to family about what car to buy and the sports car is a dream but it was shot down by them and then they discussed what car I should get and tried to put the decision on me even though I was sat there and then well I just got annoyed inside. Im the youngest so now matter how old I am to the world im still insignificant to them when it comes to these grand decisions it seems.

Anyway whilst typing this ive come to realise the the real data from my POV is the obvious pressure feeling. The rest such as fearful thoughts etc could be

1) simply a placebo since im aware im listening to a particular sub designed to combat fear

2) could just be my normal thoughts of the day and for the purpose of this journal ive simply focused on anything fear related so I cannot say for sure if this is normal or not.

Either way its too early to say anything I feel but im sharing all I can.


My 3 days break starts now so ill just note down those dates here incase I lose track...

Day 3 off - Fri 21 May
Day 4 off - Sat 22 May
Day 5 off - Sun 23 May

ill update with data if anything is noticed.

Day 6 ON - Mon 24 May
Day 7 ON - Tues 25 May

Day 8 OFF - Wed 26 May
Day 9 OFF - Thurs 27 May
Day 10 OFF - Fri 28 May

Day 11 ON - Sat 29 May
Day 12 ON - Sun 30 May

Addendum:
I am using Ultrasonic Flac track and I am using PULSAR music app as recommended to me by Shannon himself. (ive now added this extra info to post #1 too)