04-22-2021, 04:08 PM
Stage 6, Day 21,
On the final stretch. Can't say that this has transformed my life inside out.
I think that I'm becoming hyperaware of the ways that fear has had an impact on my life, on both the micro and macro level. I think that my fears are outweighing my 'alpha' programming, hence why I don't sense a major difference between start and finish.
My core fears:
1) Attention; for a variety of reasons, I'm fearful of having eyes on me
2) Sudden and swift violent attacks; this has not happened (i.e., mugging or getting jumped), but I'm realizing that I'm at the age (29) where I could easily be the victim of what I've seen on TV or violent movies. I often run through scenarios of home invasions or getting attacked by a bear.
3) Getting stranded. I have nightmarish visions of being trapped in a foreign country without my papers, or being on a distant snowy road and losing my keys.
I feel like these fears, especially #2 and #3, have been growing over time. It'll be nice to do away with those.
On the final stretch. Can't say that this has transformed my life inside out.
I think that I'm becoming hyperaware of the ways that fear has had an impact on my life, on both the micro and macro level. I think that my fears are outweighing my 'alpha' programming, hence why I don't sense a major difference between start and finish.
My core fears:
1) Attention; for a variety of reasons, I'm fearful of having eyes on me
2) Sudden and swift violent attacks; this has not happened (i.e., mugging or getting jumped), but I'm realizing that I'm at the age (29) where I could easily be the victim of what I've seen on TV or violent movies. I often run through scenarios of home invasions or getting attacked by a bear.
3) Getting stranded. I have nightmarish visions of being trapped in a foreign country without my papers, or being on a distant snowy road and losing my keys.
I feel like these fears, especially #2 and #3, have been growing over time. It'll be nice to do away with those.
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