04-18-2021, 06:05 AM
Day 45
For a little over a month now, I've had at least one home maintenance issue arise every week. This week has been no different. I don't know if I'm susceptible to a "cycle" or what's going on, but the timing of these things is peculiar. On the positive side of things, it's forcing growth, both in overcoming fears of inadequacy and in acquiring new skills. It's frustrating, but liberating.
Since beginning OFv2, my taste for my favorite adult beverage has returned in a major way. This isn't entirely surprising. Alcohol has always been my favorite way of drowning fear. For the most part, I don't consciously experience much surface level fear. But I can feel something beneath the surface being worked on. I even tremble at times. With LTU6, I had pretty much lost all desire consume alcohol. Now I crave it.
OFv2 is still in the beginning stages. There's a whole lot of fear that needs to be overcome. I can see needing to use it longer than the 8 moth minimum. I'll know more as that time arrives.
For a little over a month now, I've had at least one home maintenance issue arise every week. This week has been no different. I don't know if I'm susceptible to a "cycle" or what's going on, but the timing of these things is peculiar. On the positive side of things, it's forcing growth, both in overcoming fears of inadequacy and in acquiring new skills. It's frustrating, but liberating.
Since beginning OFv2, my taste for my favorite adult beverage has returned in a major way. This isn't entirely surprising. Alcohol has always been my favorite way of drowning fear. For the most part, I don't consciously experience much surface level fear. But I can feel something beneath the surface being worked on. I even tremble at times. With LTU6, I had pretty much lost all desire consume alcohol. Now I crave it.
OFv2 is still in the beginning stages. There's a whole lot of fear that needs to be overcome. I can see needing to use it longer than the 8 moth minimum. I'll know more as that time arrives.
