Emotional Pain Relief & Healing Aid 5G Journal

[reki]

6 months in with the E1 5g Sub. Never thought I'd be running this one for that long. Here is a review.

Before
Emotional pain relief - I'm getting sick more and more recently and I can say most of them are triggered by my subconscious.

After:
Physically my health is in better hands now. Still experiencing a bit of symptoms. Overall health physically has improved. This is to be expected and not as a result of the sub because I am on a healing regimen to cure my disease. Emotionally it improved as well. I'm exercising 3 times a week which helps.

Before
Emotional healing - As much as I say it, I think I am still damaged by people ruining my trust towards them

After:
My negative feelings towards my ex still remain but as they say, time heals all wounds and slowly I am starting to forgive her. This result probably not from the sub since I don't think it will be worse if I didn't listen to the sub every night.

Before
Guilt/shame/fear release - there are times within the day that I blame myself for my failures and turn into negativity. I know they are all stemming from fear.

After:
I'm pretty much busy within the day due to work and business so barely have time to think negatively of myself

Before
Mental/emotional maturity improvement - I want to become well adjusted especially for my age. Anxiety and depression still visits me from time to time

After:
I lost control of my anger a few times still. I still need work on this one.

Before
Self forgiveness - This is not a straight road for me. I forgive myself then when something bad happens again, I get to say harsh words towards myself.

After:
Probably improved in a way but there are days wherein fuck it I want to give up and kick the bucket.

Before:
Forgiveness of others - Same as above. I know it's better for me to forgive others who have wronged me. But when I am in a tough situation and remember them I feel like getting revenge and feeling I haven't moved on from what they have done. For instance I wished my ex girlfriend and her bf now all the best but when I am feeling down I want them to get negative karma to what they have done towards me.

After
Not much improvement here as well. Whenever someone has wronged me I still feel I need to get back and bring justice or revenge.

Before
Letting go of the past - Pretty much same as above. Also the thing is, I have had success in the past during my late 20's. I have a great body, amazing social circle and friends but I have lost most of them. I don't anymore communicate with most of my friends and even when I try to reach out, they seem distant already. With my body I hope I can get back to working out frequently. Bad sleep habits and getting ill always turned me into looking like a cancer patient. I want to eat more but it's hard to when you don't have that much appetite. Eating healthy won't help much since they lack calories for me to gain weight.

After:
I'm pretty much going back to the body I had but as such I push myself and been hurting my shoulders and lower back. I still feel attached to the past and I know it will be achieved.

Before:
Self Validation - in a way there's some good things in my life like I have a new girlfriend. We've been together for only a couple of months but sometimes I doubt whether she's for real so in turn I end up ignoring her or worse pushing her away. Probably because I still have trust issues due to what happened to me. In turn I realize it's more of what I think of myself. I want to become confident again and don't get much issues on what others think of me.

After
New girlfriend and I seems to be getting fine but trust issues still linger.

Before
Self Love - sometimes it's hard to look at myself in the mirror. Lost all my muscle gains, got scars in my face due to an skin disease. I want to love myself again but this time without any reservations. To accept myself as it is and doesn't matter how I look like. I also need help in changing my natural state of mind. I've know about the Secret and techniques like meditation, visualizations, being grateful etc. but I haven't seem to go on a streak to do them. My natural state is usually still negative. Even though I dream of living a great life, I seem to take solace and imagine that in the future I won't get to have financial freedom, if I have my own family, something bad will happen to one of them. I feel like my life is a drama movie worthy of an Oscar and full of depressing dialogue.

After
Skin infection went away but scars still remain. Hope I can get rid of them in the future. Natural state has improved. Still barely doing any meditation, visualizations and being grateful. I feel unmotivated on most days and feeling fear of what the future might bring. I feel unprepared.

Additional notes:
I discuss before that I am addicted to porn and sadly I still am. Even more now.  

Overall:
The past few months is quite good. I say so because there are not much negative things that happened to me. It was Christmastime and were looking forward to reopening after this Corona plague. As such I will be in an improved situation. With the sub, I can say it is just mediocre. It probably helped but not to the point I can say that "WOAH! I've changed!" I saw that all of you are saying that I should get a new 5.75g E4 sub but with the results I've got it didn't quite convinced me to. I improved but I didn't think it is a major difference if I this sub isn't playing at night. I surpassed the 6 months playing time and I don't think playing it more will help. I think of becoming a free agent and try other subs instead of this and see but the other free subs don't interest me at all. This is probably not the sub I need as of the moment which is why I didn't get the results I wanted.

I would like to try the OF v2 5.75g, Life Tune Up v6.0 Six Stage Set  or the new Ultimate Monetary Success 5.75g but money is tight as of the moment.

I am running E4 now (6 months in) and I can say the program has helped me. It forced me to confront some unpleasant emotions as well as notice when others are trying to manipulate me. I plan on running OF V2 next in June

My EPHRA 5g experience is quite mediocre so I am not pleased enough to buy the E4 version. If it's for free then I might try it.