08-11-2012, 07:16 PM
Remove the negativity within and gratitude are literally transforming my life. What was a crippling fear two months ago that I couldn't have even imagined has now become a possibility.
I'm out and looking at flats to move into to get out of my parents place. I couldn't even have imagined doing this two months ago let alone actually doing it. I still have some fear there but its dropped a significant amount and theres even some excitement about it. I know the two fears are
a) fear of rejection
b) Fear of the unknown (This has dropped a lot since using RNW and gratitude)
I also joined an acting class the other day I just turned up and knew absolutely nobody. Thats another thing I couldn't have imagined doing two months ago.
I also feel I can now see a future without my ex. There have been one or two days where thoughts have popped up around I can't but they are gone in a few minutes.
I'm also so much more optimistic and enjoying what I have now instead of feeling like I need more. I've had some negativity the last few days but it pails in comparison to what I used to have and other days there has been none.
The list of changes is two big to go into detail here but in there
* Fear of the unknown has decreased
* Increase in optimism
* Being able to see my future in a positive light
* Being able to think big again and think outside the box - This is something I thought I'd lost
* Most of the time being a bit more social
* Decrease in constantly searching for what is wrong with me
* Being more relaxed in general - I have had a few people comment on how relaxed I seem now
* Able to just laugh things off when people get angry and treat it like a joke. Its amazing how this can change their mood pretty quickly when done in a none offensive way
* More assertive without being aggressive - After Alpha I was extremely closed up a lot of the time and could get very aggressive
* Mood has stabilized a lot still fluctuates a bit but thats just life
I've most likely missed a few things off that list but the change has been huge and people have noticed it to more so than they noticed my changes in alpha. I quite honestly believe next run through with AM5 is going to be so different to how AM11 was. All the goals I set out with have been achieved at least to some level so i'm interested to see what the next two months on these subs bring
I'm out and looking at flats to move into to get out of my parents place. I couldn't even have imagined doing this two months ago let alone actually doing it. I still have some fear there but its dropped a significant amount and theres even some excitement about it. I know the two fears are
a) fear of rejection
b) Fear of the unknown (This has dropped a lot since using RNW and gratitude)
I also joined an acting class the other day I just turned up and knew absolutely nobody. Thats another thing I couldn't have imagined doing two months ago.
I also feel I can now see a future without my ex. There have been one or two days where thoughts have popped up around I can't but they are gone in a few minutes.
I'm also so much more optimistic and enjoying what I have now instead of feeling like I need more. I've had some negativity the last few days but it pails in comparison to what I used to have and other days there has been none.
The list of changes is two big to go into detail here but in there
* Fear of the unknown has decreased
* Increase in optimism
* Being able to see my future in a positive light
* Being able to think big again and think outside the box - This is something I thought I'd lost
* Most of the time being a bit more social
* Decrease in constantly searching for what is wrong with me
* Being more relaxed in general - I have had a few people comment on how relaxed I seem now
* Able to just laugh things off when people get angry and treat it like a joke. Its amazing how this can change their mood pretty quickly when done in a none offensive way
* More assertive without being aggressive - After Alpha I was extremely closed up a lot of the time and could get very aggressive
* Mood has stabilized a lot still fluctuates a bit but thats just life
I've most likely missed a few things off that list but the change has been huge and people have noticed it to more so than they noticed my changes in alpha. I quite honestly believe next run through with AM5 is going to be so different to how AM11 was. All the goals I set out with have been achieved at least to some level so i'm interested to see what the next two months on these subs bring
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
