Transcendental Sith Lord's OFv2 Journal

[Shannon]

Will try to make this short, plenty of good stuff today.

First off I got the first Vaccination shot today on literally my first official day of work. Funny thing is I interacted with people and there was this one nurse who kept on asking me like 2 times if I wanted to take the shot (mind you she didn't ask this of anyone else in the whole place). Didn't really respond as I didn't care as much but as I was on the escalator on my way out one of the main women asked me if I wanted to get it since  they had extra thawed out Vaccines left. I said yes and got Vaccinated and will be taking the final shot in about 3 weeks. I found this whole thing interesting as it felt like good things kept on happening all day. It was tiring work at times but the sociability kept my mind off it at times.

Another thing is I got put in a certain section and I found myself talking to these 2 women all the time. Like all day I was talking while directing people which would have been unheard of before hand. No social anxiety, fear, or care about what I was saying. I just said what I honestly felt like saying and didn't even need to think about what I wanted to say really. The conversations flowed so easily that at one point I felt like with one chick something that popped in my mind out of no where that things were starting to feel strangely attractive in nature. I noticed that moment then, analyzed her, and then I just "forgot" about it as I didn't care all that much either way. I was just talking to her to talk to her with no motivation in mind. In looks she looked ok but not so much body wise. So I didn't really have any ulterior motive when speaking to her and I think this put her at ease. Some much so that she started laughing more, joking, and actually started showing me stuff on her phone.

Eh, also I just talked and talked for the most part. Not too much to the point of being annoying but enough that I got along with anyone who interacted with me despite any personality type. I actually noticed it was most of the time people coming up to me wanting to talk or ask for directions. In the case of that one nurse wanting to give me stuff (the Vaccination while not offering it to anyone else lol). Eh, its interesting how things have changed. This is my first time doing a job since my transformation as it were and its obvious from this day that I have changed quite a lot. Almost complete 180 and in how people respond to me.

Also I'm finding that work gives me more satisfaction than games, or anything else. I'm actually contemplating since the daily pay is good (the work qualifies for daily overtime in California and it pays weekly) that I might end up working 6-7 days a week if they are short staffed on each day with rolling out the Vaccines. Seems like making my life better through earning money and doing work actually gives me more satisfaction than anything. Nothing compares to accomplishing goals now.

Lastly, I want to report two different side notes that I am feeling TID from two different subs it seems. First as I mentioned in the discussion journal that 1-2 days ago I felt this significant increase in sexual energy and confidence that was off the charts. I just felt this loving feeling for the sexual energy I had and it felt quite pleasurable. For today I had this weird occurrence where its like my mind thought of how it would be on the new MLS and I felt this kind of knowledge expanding feeling in my mind. Its very hard to describe really. How I could be feeling TID from two different subs I have no idea as I know for a fact if I start one I'm going to be on that one for a good few weeks if not months before I switch to something else. Anyway, point of all this is OFv2 results are permanent and I see real tangible, outward change after the shift in my internal beliefs.

I do want to show one thing which was enlightening and I discovered this video like 2 days ago which literally explained to me what i'm feeling and what OFv2 essentially did for me. I think this video sums it up very, very well. It would also explain why as I've gone down this road more and more of some of the things Nietzsche said is making a lot of sense now. One thought to leave with that is one series phrases particularly kept on repeating in my mind when my transformation happened: "I am my own person now. I am me. I am my own man now".

(I will warn that I don't know if this video breaks any rules as the main thing is the self actualization of the man as the main point of the video though it mentions some of Nietzsche's ideas which some might be familiar with. If it does I will take the video if the mods deem it so).

Technically, it breaks multiple rules.  After considering it, I think it is better to remove it.  The world seems to be going through a period of insanity right now, and it seems to me that that video would be misunderstood by and potentially negatively encouraging the type who is affected by that insanity in ways that could further the current negative social situations we see in the United States and elsewhere in the world.  I'd prefer not to have the role of helping to further that.  It also isn't appropriate for the forum to have such depictions of violence.  Please adjust your post accordingly.

@Shannon Can the transcendent Alpha be comparable to Nietzsche's "Ubermench" concept in someways? Are there any major differences between these two? (Assuming your familiar with the Ubermench concept. Mainly the idea of a man who creates and establishes his own values).

A transcendent alpha embodies a man's highest potentials in a number of different directions, not just in the classical sense.  Becoming a transcendent alpha requires change and transformation, but not necessarily "death" in any sense of the word.    I always thought of it more as becoming more alive by embracing the truth of one's full self and letting go of and growing past the fear of the inner child.  Sort of climbing out of a self created prison that is neither genuinely representative of one's actual limits, nor fitting for the potentials of the self.

My concept of a transendent alpha is many things, but primarily a man who has achieved his true natural potentials in all the ways that make him the forefront of what he is capable of becoming in the direction he chooses to go - ever becoming, but being at his current full achievement of what his potentials are.  To be more of his potential, he must grow further still, and that growth is what makes him alive.  No man ever stops having the potential to grow further, never "achieves it all" in just one lifetime.  Such a man, regardless of his age, is seeking to be better than he was yesterday even as he draws his dying breath.  He is a leader of self first and foremost, leading himself by his will and achieving his desires, and he makes his own rules and lives by them to whatever extent is most reasonable and desirable for achieving his ultimate goals.  

Obviously, living by your own rules will require adjustment according to the external circumstances you live in, governments, laws, etc. being forces that may require adjustment of the external expression of your internal recognition that all rules are arbitrary and that one must choose what rules to be limited by and to what extent in order to be the fullest possible expression of himself.  

So I guess there does seem to be some overlap, although I haven't studied Nietzsche very much, so I can only go as far as I am familiar with the concept and my understanding of what was being expressed.