01-27-2021, 03:24 PM
I am done.
Been wondering for a while how I would write this next post. I feel like I have arrived at the destination to be honest (though I will keep running the sub for a while until MLS comes out). So much stuff to go over. I feel like I have undergone some kind of spiritual and emotional awakening if I could use that phrase. I guess I should first start with the events themselves and then the affects. Interestingly you can say it all started with 2 dreams on separate nights.
The first dream I don't totally understand fully. It was just total darkness then in my mind I could see this (only way to describe it) small star fish made out of nothing but energy. It had this flashy neon jelly fish like rainbow colors of energy it was made of. It apparently it was inside of me and started sucking up all the negative energy within me. As it did this is got bigger and bigger, until it was outside my body and laid itself on my back. While this was happening I was able to see my surroundings. When it was on my back I was in a sitting position (Japanese sitting) in an entire universe. A very vibrant universe full of planets, stars, etc. I am somewhat close near a star and as I look to it I can see something floating from the right side of it towards it center, in front of it. It stops there and then turns it full body towards me. I can't make it out fully because with it being in front of the sun its darkened except a side of its face which shows its humanoid but not human. I can only tell that its feminine in nature. Not much after that.
Just like the dream though the effects was I just felt like all the negativity was sucked out of me. Completely clean slate practically. I thought that would be it but then a few days later came the other dream. I started propelling through the atmosphere until I was literally in orbit of the planet. I felt myself building up with more love and energy as I did so. I stopped in orbit and had this overflowing blue, sparkling energy radiating off of me. I sat in an kind of meditation stance while I was in orbit looking down on the world from this height. I only saw just a few others far away in orbit that were doing similar. There weren't that many people at this height. I just felt this kind of spiritual awakening within me. For about 2 days after that I felt nothing but love for myself and everyone (even those in the past that had hurt me). It actually was to the point that it felt almost debilitating because I was kind of "bed locked" as why would I do anything else when I can just lay here and feel love for myself and others.
Afterwards I still had love but it more balanced itself out. Now I still feel love and bring that feeling to the forefront if I want but now its more of a quiet, calm, peaceful confidence that is my state now. I know where I am going and I know I'm going to get there. I know the road I intend to travel and the consequences of traveling it. The reaching of my goals is inevitable. I would only take heed of what people say if (1) what they say is "true" or (2) they are saying it with complete sincerity and concern. If the latter I will explain to them why I'm not accepting what they are saying but will appreciate the concern.
Anyway, I have this confidence that I have arrived at the destination honestly. I will of course keep on running until MLS comes out at the least. I do feel though now that I could run any sub (no matter the generation) and get the results I desire. I am also not afraid of achieve my goals of becoming wealthy and powerful. Funny enough there was at one time I would have thought that fear would have kept me from being corrupt if I became wealthy and powerful but all it did was keep me from getting anywhere near my goal to begin with. I see if you have fears opposite (love) and rationality then you have no worry of fallen into corruption. I have completely none now and am fully confident I can handle such responsibility.
As far as sexual interest there practically isn't any as much. It took me a while but I realized I hadn't even watched porn or even masturbated for like a week. Hadn't even thought about it which was surprising. I realize
I had been using it to make myself feel better (just like with video games) because in the real world I had felt like shit. With this no longer being a case there is no longer any point in using such things.
I realize as well there are some major things that happened that preluded me accepting the instructions of the sub. I actually realized that at one point I identified so much with the sub that I saw the instructions as coming from myself. It instructions were no longer coming from outside of me but from within. Another thing which I would say to anyone who wants really get rid of fear is are you willing to accept this real basic premise: That fear is an illusion? It was like something really went off in my head and I finally realize it was all an illusion. Tell me, does it accurately portray reality? or does it make you see things that aren't there? Does it wildly make things seem bigger than they actually are? If it doesn't tell the truth of how things are then why are you listening to it? There is one even that also happened that coincided with this revelation that I think @Shannon would be interested to know but before I get to that there is one major important thing you also need to ask.
Are you wiling to believe what you need to believe in order to get what you (say you) want in this world? I would ask this because many of you are afraid of doing this. I bet mainly because you identity with your current beliefs so much that you see it as "you" and therefore changing those beliefs would equal the "death" of current you. You have grown attached to this version of you despite this being nothing but many potential versions of you that you have simply chosen to experience.
Regarding the fear is an illusion thing the event that happened was quite interesting. Once I truly believed that I got this image in my mind that I can't describe. All I know was it was the lowest part of my subconscious. The one that doesn't perceive time at all had finally accepted it and it felt like it accepted it then repeated it to all parts of me regardless of time (past, present, and future) and place. Its hard to describe how it really felt like. I feel like this was the biggest turn around for me in the entire time running this sub. It does prove though that this level of the subconscious exist at least imo. I also feel as though we vastly underestimate what the subconscious is capable of.
Either way this all was what I mainly wanted to report. I don't see much else or any other big revelations coming any time soon before I hope on the new MLS honestly. I identify with the instructions of the sub, fear is an illusion to me, and the deepest part of my subconscious has accepted the instructions. Not sure what else I could ask for. Fear does not exist in my reality anymore. I see that all the fear at the end of the day was for nothing. It was worthless and did nothing but get in the way.
Been wondering for a while how I would write this next post. I feel like I have arrived at the destination to be honest (though I will keep running the sub for a while until MLS comes out). So much stuff to go over. I feel like I have undergone some kind of spiritual and emotional awakening if I could use that phrase. I guess I should first start with the events themselves and then the affects. Interestingly you can say it all started with 2 dreams on separate nights.
The first dream I don't totally understand fully. It was just total darkness then in my mind I could see this (only way to describe it) small star fish made out of nothing but energy. It had this flashy neon jelly fish like rainbow colors of energy it was made of. It apparently it was inside of me and started sucking up all the negative energy within me. As it did this is got bigger and bigger, until it was outside my body and laid itself on my back. While this was happening I was able to see my surroundings. When it was on my back I was in a sitting position (Japanese sitting) in an entire universe. A very vibrant universe full of planets, stars, etc. I am somewhat close near a star and as I look to it I can see something floating from the right side of it towards it center, in front of it. It stops there and then turns it full body towards me. I can't make it out fully because with it being in front of the sun its darkened except a side of its face which shows its humanoid but not human. I can only tell that its feminine in nature. Not much after that.
Just like the dream though the effects was I just felt like all the negativity was sucked out of me. Completely clean slate practically. I thought that would be it but then a few days later came the other dream. I started propelling through the atmosphere until I was literally in orbit of the planet. I felt myself building up with more love and energy as I did so. I stopped in orbit and had this overflowing blue, sparkling energy radiating off of me. I sat in an kind of meditation stance while I was in orbit looking down on the world from this height. I only saw just a few others far away in orbit that were doing similar. There weren't that many people at this height. I just felt this kind of spiritual awakening within me. For about 2 days after that I felt nothing but love for myself and everyone (even those in the past that had hurt me). It actually was to the point that it felt almost debilitating because I was kind of "bed locked" as why would I do anything else when I can just lay here and feel love for myself and others.
Afterwards I still had love but it more balanced itself out. Now I still feel love and bring that feeling to the forefront if I want but now its more of a quiet, calm, peaceful confidence that is my state now. I know where I am going and I know I'm going to get there. I know the road I intend to travel and the consequences of traveling it. The reaching of my goals is inevitable. I would only take heed of what people say if (1) what they say is "true" or (2) they are saying it with complete sincerity and concern. If the latter I will explain to them why I'm not accepting what they are saying but will appreciate the concern.
Anyway, I have this confidence that I have arrived at the destination honestly. I will of course keep on running until MLS comes out at the least. I do feel though now that I could run any sub (no matter the generation) and get the results I desire. I am also not afraid of achieve my goals of becoming wealthy and powerful. Funny enough there was at one time I would have thought that fear would have kept me from being corrupt if I became wealthy and powerful but all it did was keep me from getting anywhere near my goal to begin with. I see if you have fears opposite (love) and rationality then you have no worry of fallen into corruption. I have completely none now and am fully confident I can handle such responsibility.
As far as sexual interest there practically isn't any as much. It took me a while but I realized I hadn't even watched porn or even masturbated for like a week. Hadn't even thought about it which was surprising. I realize
I had been using it to make myself feel better (just like with video games) because in the real world I had felt like shit. With this no longer being a case there is no longer any point in using such things.
I realize as well there are some major things that happened that preluded me accepting the instructions of the sub. I actually realized that at one point I identified so much with the sub that I saw the instructions as coming from myself. It instructions were no longer coming from outside of me but from within. Another thing which I would say to anyone who wants really get rid of fear is are you willing to accept this real basic premise: That fear is an illusion? It was like something really went off in my head and I finally realize it was all an illusion. Tell me, does it accurately portray reality? or does it make you see things that aren't there? Does it wildly make things seem bigger than they actually are? If it doesn't tell the truth of how things are then why are you listening to it? There is one even that also happened that coincided with this revelation that I think @Shannon would be interested to know but before I get to that there is one major important thing you also need to ask.
Are you wiling to believe what you need to believe in order to get what you (say you) want in this world? I would ask this because many of you are afraid of doing this. I bet mainly because you identity with your current beliefs so much that you see it as "you" and therefore changing those beliefs would equal the "death" of current you. You have grown attached to this version of you despite this being nothing but many potential versions of you that you have simply chosen to experience.
Regarding the fear is an illusion thing the event that happened was quite interesting. Once I truly believed that I got this image in my mind that I can't describe. All I know was it was the lowest part of my subconscious. The one that doesn't perceive time at all had finally accepted it and it felt like it accepted it then repeated it to all parts of me regardless of time (past, present, and future) and place. Its hard to describe how it really felt like. I feel like this was the biggest turn around for me in the entire time running this sub. It does prove though that this level of the subconscious exist at least imo. I also feel as though we vastly underestimate what the subconscious is capable of.
Either way this all was what I mainly wanted to report. I don't see much else or any other big revelations coming any time soon before I hope on the new MLS honestly. I identify with the instructions of the sub, fear is an illusion to me, and the deepest part of my subconscious has accepted the instructions. Not sure what else I could ask for. Fear does not exist in my reality anymore. I see that all the fear at the end of the day was for nothing. It was worthless and did nothing but get in the way.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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