08-10-2012, 08:16 AM
On day 3 of the ultrasonic stage one. Previous days I was getting a lot of head pressure/headache during the day that I can fully attribute to the sub as I never get headaches otherwise. Today seems to be much better though, I had a good night of sleep and feel very light and good today so hoping that pressure is gone.
I've had a couple of things happen over the last few days but I don't think I can they are the subs as I think it's too early to see effects. One was while going to the store alone. I Consciously made note of my walk and slowed down. It felt much better. This was something that stood out from the book though and like I said I purposefully did it. I did get a couple of looks from girls while there but it could have been because of my shaggy hair which is way out of control right now lol I got a hair cut today to calm it back down. Which on that note I seem to be gravitating to keeping better care of myself and researching a lot of things in that area.
Next was an issue with my submissive. This again was not because of the subs I know because she's asked me about it before and I new it was coming to a head. She started out with saying she was scared I wasn't going to want her to come back after she goes back to school. She graduates in this fall and would like to move at least to the same city as me. Being in a Ds (dominant/submissive) relationship is a little different than normal. I'm in control and she submits to that. She knows very well that I have no interest in marriage and that it's at my discretion whether we continue or not. I won't play games I'll just say I'm ready for a change. I was very frank with her and basically told her that she was right and I have not made up my mind on that decision. Since then she's been a little rebellious toward me which I will be taking care of shortly but I did expect it.
Thanks for the welcomes, I love this little community you guys have built here.
I've had a couple of things happen over the last few days but I don't think I can they are the subs as I think it's too early to see effects. One was while going to the store alone. I Consciously made note of my walk and slowed down. It felt much better. This was something that stood out from the book though and like I said I purposefully did it. I did get a couple of looks from girls while there but it could have been because of my shaggy hair which is way out of control right now lol I got a hair cut today to calm it back down. Which on that note I seem to be gravitating to keeping better care of myself and researching a lot of things in that area.
Next was an issue with my submissive. This again was not because of the subs I know because she's asked me about it before and I new it was coming to a head. She started out with saying she was scared I wasn't going to want her to come back after she goes back to school. She graduates in this fall and would like to move at least to the same city as me. Being in a Ds (dominant/submissive) relationship is a little different than normal. I'm in control and she submits to that. She knows very well that I have no interest in marriage and that it's at my discretion whether we continue or not. I won't play games I'll just say I'm ready for a change. I was very frank with her and basically told her that she was right and I have not made up my mind on that decision. Since then she's been a little rebellious toward me which I will be taking care of shortly but I did expect it.
Thanks for the welcomes, I love this little community you guys have built here.
