11-05-2020, 09:40 AM
So today i said goodbye to another person that was not good for my mental health.
Little background:
I had a relationship with one of my exes in the past and I did enjoy this time together the most. It was sexually and emotionally the best expierence that I had. Unfortunately it ended due my fears and my doubts . Like everything that feels good I got addicted to this expierence. I could not accept that this time is over. I thought if i just work on myself and try babysteps forward i could change this reality and to be honest it worked at least for half of it. We got in contact again I manifested a lot of text messages and other things. We even meet again. But I was not satiesfied I wanted everything like it used to be. i was always dreaming of this dream relationship in my head. I always thought okay maybe now I am not seeing it in my reality but that doesnt mean that it cant be in the future. I didnt realize that I fall in love in this imagination in my head and not in that person. I was addicted to the past expierence and thats why it was so hard for me to let go.
I told her today goodbye to end it once and for all.
It hurts because i invested so much time and energy in reconciling this. Its like ive lost.
From a neutral perspective it shows me at least that my self esteem is important to me
Little background:
I had a relationship with one of my exes in the past and I did enjoy this time together the most. It was sexually and emotionally the best expierence that I had. Unfortunately it ended due my fears and my doubts . Like everything that feels good I got addicted to this expierence. I could not accept that this time is over. I thought if i just work on myself and try babysteps forward i could change this reality and to be honest it worked at least for half of it. We got in contact again I manifested a lot of text messages and other things. We even meet again. But I was not satiesfied I wanted everything like it used to be. i was always dreaming of this dream relationship in my head. I always thought okay maybe now I am not seeing it in my reality but that doesnt mean that it cant be in the future. I didnt realize that I fall in love in this imagination in my head and not in that person. I was addicted to the past expierence and thats why it was so hard for me to let go.
I told her today goodbye to end it once and for all.
It hurts because i invested so much time and energy in reconciling this. Its like ive lost.
From a neutral perspective it shows me at least that my self esteem is important to me
